Megrelburg. The Heart of Van Helten [English Version]

Mergelburg: The Heart of Van Helten — the first novel in a series about Howard van Helten, his coming of age, his choices, and the people who will leave their mark on his life.

Mergelburg, 1987. A small provincial town where shop windows light up in the evenings, diners hum with noise, and music drifts from passing cars. The young people live from weekend to weekend, but for Howard van Helten, everything changes in a single moment.

He sees through people, yet is afraid to reveal himself. Everything shifts when a girl enters his life — someone for whom he is ready, for the first time, to break his own rules. But the harder he tries to calculate every move, the faster the thing he fears losing slips away from him.

This is a story about how the fear of loss destroys more powerfully than loss itself.

But perhaps not everything has been decided yet.