For a moment the room seemed to whirl around Dorothy. The words seemed to strike into her very brain as they fell from Mrs. Garner's lips. "My son is soon to be married!" and the four walls seemed to repeat and re-echo them.
"I shall lose a son, but I shall gain a dear daughter," added the old lady, softly.
For an instant, as Dorothy sat trembling there, the impulse was strong upon her to fly from the house. The very air seemed to stifle her.
While she hesitated, fate settled the matter for her. The front door was opened by some one who had a latch-key, and a voice that thrilled every fiber of her being addressed some question to a servant passing through the corridor.
"Here is my son coming at last!" exclaimed the old lady, in pleased eagerness.
"Jack – Jack, my dear!" she called; "I am in the drawing-room. Step in a moment, my son;" and before Dorothy could collect her scattered senses the portières were parted by a strong, white hand, and Jack Garner stood on the threshold.
Ah! how changed he was in those few short months! The boyish expression had vanished. He looked older, more care-worn. The fair, handsome face was graver; the blue eyes were surely more thoughtful. Even his fair chestnut hair seemed to have taken on a deeper, more golden hue.
He crossed the room, bent over his mother, and kissed her.
"This is my son – Mrs. Brown, Mr. Garner," said the old lady, her voice lingering over the words with pardonable pride.
It was a terrible moment for Dorothy.
Would Jack know her? Would not those keen, grave, searching eyes penetrate her disguise?
He gave but a casual glance to the small, slim figure clad in black, and bowed courteously, then turned away.
The greatest ordeal of her life was past.
She had met Jack – Jack who had loved her so – face to face, and he had not recognized her.
She rallied from her confused thoughts by a great effort, for Mrs. Garner was speaking to her.
"I was saying, that as we seem mutually pleased with each other, we may as well consider the arrangement as settled between us."
Dorothy bowed. She could not utter a word in protest to save her life, although she had quite made up her mind not to remain under that roof.
"Your duties will be light, and I feel sure you will find ours a pleasant home. I will ring for one of the servants to show you to your room;" and suiting the action to the word, she touched the bell, and an instant later a neat little maid appeared, who courtesied and asked Dorothy to follow her.
"Madame will find her little child has already been taken to her apartments," said the girl, opening the door at the further end of the upper corridor.
Yes, little Pearl was there, cooing with delight at her new surroundings, and over the cup of hot milk and crackers on the little stand close beside her.
The girl rose hastily as Dorothy entered, set down the child, and quitted the apartment.
Upon finding herself alone with Pearl, Dorothy snatched the child up in her arms, sank down in the depths of a great easy-chair, and sobbed as though her heart would break.
"Oh, little Pearl! how I wish that we had never come here!" she moaned. "It makes me feel so sad."
The baby's blue eyes looked up into her own in wonder, but her soft cooing and the clasp of her little soft, warm fingers could not comfort Dorothy.
After luncheon she was called into Mrs. Garner's room.
"I am not feeling well," she said, motioning Dorothy to a seat. "I should like you to read to me until I fall asleep. Take any of the books from the book-case in the library. I have no choice."
The silent little figure in black bowed, and glided out of the room.
It was dusk in the library as she entered it, and while she pondered as to whether she should call some one to light the gas, to enable her to read the titles on the volumes, she heard Jack's voice.
But instead of passing, he entered, and proceeded to light the gas. With a beating heart Dorothy drew still further back, and at that moment another person entered the room.
"I knew I should find you here, Jack," said a voice that sounded terribly familiar to the figure in the window hidden by the silken draperies. "I have come to ask a little favor of you. I hope you will not find it in your heart to refuse me."
Before the last comer in the room had ceased speaking, Dorothy knew who it was – Jessie Staples!
A great lump rose in her throat, and her heart beat. She knew that she should have slipped from her place of concealment and quitted the room, but she seemed to have been held spell-bound by a power she could not control. She leaned heavily against the wall and listened with painful intensity to the conversation that was taking place between her old lover and Jessie, although she knew that it was wrong for her to do so.
"A favor you would ask of me?" repeated Jack, quickly. "Why, consider it granted beforehand," he returned, "if it is within my power."
"You are more than kind," murmured Jessie, adding: "The fact is, I have too painful a headache to attend the opera with you to-night, but I want you to go and enjoy yourself, and take some young girl in my place. I – I do not want to mar your happiness for this evening."
"I am quite sorry to seem unkind," he returned, "but really, Jessie, I beg that you will not ask me to take any one else to the opera, if you can not go. Although I promised beforehand, I trust you will not hold me to anything like that. I do not feel inclined to entertain any of your friends this evening, especially when you are not present. But, really, Jessie, I think it might do you good to go – the lights, and the music, and the gay throng, might divert your thoughts from yourself, and act as a wonderful panacea in banishing your headache."
"No – no!" returned Jessie; "believe me, I shall feel much better at home. But you must go. I could not forgive myself if I were to be the cause of your losing one hour of happiness, and I know, Jack, that you enjoy affairs of that kind so much. Go, if only to please me."
"If you are sure that it will please you, Jessie, I can not withstand your entreaties," he returned, thoughtfully. "Still, I have the hope that you may change your mind at the eleventh hour, and be ready to go with me," he added, laughingly. "I have a few letters to write, and will see you after I finish them. Remember it is not every night that one can hear Patti;" and with a few more pleasant words he quitted the room.
For some moments after he had left, Jessie Staples stood leaning against the mantel, gazing thoughtfully into the fire; then she was startled by a step close beside her.
She turned her head suddenly and saw a dark figure just leaving the room.
"Stay!" she called out; and the figure hesitated on the threshold. "Come here!" and the dark-robed figure advanced slowly and stood before her. "You are Mrs. Brown, the new companion?" she said, interrogatively.
"Yes," murmured a stifled voice.
"May I ask how long you have been standing in the room?" Miss Staples inquired, rather curiously. "I did not see you come in."
"I beg your pardon," came the faint answer. "I entered a few moments before you did, and when the gentleman entered and you commenced speaking, I – I hardly knew how to make my presence known, the conversation was so personal. I tried to make my escape from the room as soon as it was possible. I – I hope you are not angry with me."
"No," said Miss Staples, slowly. "I am sure the facts are as you stated them. You may resume your duties. That is all I wish to say," said Miss Staples.
Still the slight figure hesitated.
Poor Dorothy, how she longed to fling herself in Jessie's arms and cry out:
"Oh, Jessie, Jessie! don't you know me? I am Dorothy – your poor little friend Dorothy whom you used to love so dearly in the old days."
Still she dared not; no, she dared not betray her identity. And with one lingering glance she turned and slowly left the library, holding, tightly clutched in her hand, one of the volumes from the great book-case.
She had caught up the first one which she laid her hand on.
"You have been gone some time, Mrs. Brown," said Mrs. Garner, fretfully, as she entered the boudoir. "Let me see your selection. What book have you brought me? Why, as I live, it is the dictionary!" she exclaimed, in a most astonished voice. "Did you think I had need of that?"
The old lady flushed painfully. It was well known that it was one of her weak points to guard carefully from the world that she had no education whatever.
She would rather have died than to have let people know that she had at one time been a poor working-woman; and now this stranger, who had been only a hours beneath her roof, had discovered it.
She did not know what remark to make to Mrs. Brown, she was so aghast when the dictionary was handed her.
"You have made a very wise selection, Mrs. Brown," she said. "I quite agree with you that there is no book more instructive than the dictionary. You may read me twenty pages, or such a matter. I deem it very instructive, indeed – to you."
With a gasp, Dorothy took the book. Oh, how tedious it was, pronouncing word after word, and giving their definitions!
Every now and then Mrs. Garner would nod her head, remarking that such and such a word it would be well for her to take extra pains to remember, as they were in such general use in every-day conversation.
At length she ceased to make remarks altogether, and when Dorothy glanced up at her through the blue glasses which she wore, she found that the old lady was fast asleep, and with a very tired look on her face.
Dorothy laid down the book with a sigh, crossed her thin little white hands in her lap, and gave herself up to conflicting thoughts.
Only a little while before Jack had loved her so devotedly, and now he was about to marry Jessie, her friend of other days, whom he scarcely noticed when she was only Dorothy's friend.
While she was meditating over the matter, one of the maids put her head in at the door.
"If you please, Mrs. Brown, would you mind coming to Miss Staples a few moments?" she asked. "Her maid has leave of absence this week, and she misses her services."
"I will go with pleasure," said Dorothy, rising and following her at once.
As she entered the pretty blue-and-gold boudoir, she saw that Jessie had changed her mind about going to the opera that evening, for she was already dressed in opera attire.
"You wished to see me?" said Dorothy, in a husky voice.
"If you please, Mrs. Brown," said Jessie. "I should like you to accompany Mr. Garner and myself to the opera to-night, as my maid – that is, if Jack's mother has no objection, of course."
She did not catch the murmured words her companion uttered.
"There are a few little finishing touches to my toilet which I would like to have you help me with. In that velvet case on the center-table you will find a necklace of sapphires and diamonds. You may fetch it to me."
With trembling hands Dorothy clasped the necklace around Miss Staples' firm white throat.
"They are very beautiful – don't you think so?" she asked, looking at Dorothy with the old-time burst of enthusiasm which she remembered so well.
"Yes," returned Dorothy, in a low voice.
"They are Mr. Garner's gift to me. To-day is my birthday," she went on, "and this is Mr. Garner's gift – beautiful, is it not?"
"Yes," said Dorothy, in the same low, wistful voice.
"He is so considerate of my wishes; I had merely expressed the words that I admired sapphires and diamonds, and see! he has presented me with this lovely set!"
"The gentleman must have a very generous heart," said Dorothy, faintly.
Jessie Staples started and looked at her searchingly.
"Do you know that your voice reminds me of the voice of a young girl whom I once knew and loved dearly?" she said, huskily.
Oh, how those words thrilled every fiber of Dorothy's being!
"She was a very fair young girl," continued Jessie, thoughtfully, "but she went astray."
The bracelet that Dorothy was holding fell to the floor with a crash.
"Oh, I – I must have broken it!" she sobbed.
"Never mind," said Miss Staples; "you could not help it. Accidents are liable to happen at any time. It is not past mending, I am sure. Do not allow it to trouble you."
She quite believed that Mrs. Brown was a trifle awkward – probably a little nervous, and she did her best to reassure her.
"You must not feel badly about it," she repeated kindly. "I, too, am nervous sometimes. Why, only to-night I dropped my cup of chocolate, breaking the cup into bits, my hands were so nervous. I had such a headache all day, that I did not feel able to go down to the table. Even now I am by no means free from the terrible pain in my head. We shall leave the opera early," she went on, adding: "No doubt you are pleased to hear that."
"It does not matter much to me, madame," came the faint reply.
"The carriage will be here in half an hour. I trust you will be ready, Mrs. Brown. Please have my wraps in readiness then. One of the maids will tell you where to find them. You will not have much time to get your own wraps."
At the hour named, Dorothy stood ready, and a few minutes later Mr. Garner appeared in the corridor.
Taking Jessie's arm, he led her down to the carriage, seated her, helped in the little dark figure, and then proceeded carefully to tuck Jessie in with all the robes.
They were only ordinary attentions bestowed upon her companion, but they rankled deeply, like the thrust of a sharp sword, in the heart of the girl who sat there witnessing it all.
They talked upon indifferent subjects, but it seemed to Dorothy that every word held a double meaning.
Oh, how solicitous he was for her comfort! how he gathered the wraps about her, anxiously inquiring if she felt the cold air! how low and tender his words seemed to the girl sitting opposite them, and both seemed entirely oblivious to her presence.
The curtain was up when they reached their box, but all through the opera the little dark figure who shrank back behind the silken hangings saw nothing, heard nothing; she was watching so intently the old lover who was so near, and yet, alas! so far from her.
In the old days she had loved Jessie Staples, but now, as she saw her old friend and Jack Garner all in all to each other, she grew in a single hour to almost hate her for usurping her place in his heart.
True, there was not the same devotion that he had been wont to pay her; but then, Jack was older now and graver. How he had come by this sudden wealth puzzled her. Then, by degrees it all came back to her – how he used to say that some day there was a bare possibility of his being wealthy – that he had some expectations from a distant relative. Surely those expectations must have been realized, or he could not be in the position which he was now enjoying. How strange that the Garners had lifted Jessie Staples out of the old life, and that she now was Jack's betrothed bride. And she wondered vaguely if he had forgotten the Dorothy he had loved so well.
Suddenly he turned toward her, and at that moment Jessie rose hastily to her feet.
"We will get home as quickly as possible," he said, hurriedly. "Miss Staples is indisposed."
Jessie leaned heavily on his arm, and they went quickly out of the building and into the carriage.
All the way home his arm supported her, and her head leaned helplessly on his shoulder.
Dorothy followed with her wraps up to Miss Staple's boudoir.
"Thank you – that will do," she said, wearily, dismissing her at her door, and Dorothy turned away.
One of the maids had rocked little Pearl to sleep, and the babe lay slumbering quietly in her crib.
Dorothy did not go toward it, as was her wont upon entering her room at night – indeed, she had forgotten about the child until she heard her cough, a little later on.
She was just about to cross the room to the little one, when one of the maids came hurriedly to her door.
"Would you mind sitting up with Miss Staples?" she cried, breathlessly; "she is anything but well. It looks to me as though she has a fever, but she will not hear to having a doctor called, or even of letting Mrs. Garner know how ill she is. She declares that, with a good night's rest, she will be all right in the morning."
Dorothy went hastily to Jessie Staples' room, while the girl remained to take charge of the child for the night.
She found Jessie as the maid had declared – quite ill and feverish-looking, but still wearing the soft chiffon dress she had worn at the opera, with the sapphire necklace gleaming on her white throat, and bracelets shining on her polished arms.
Dorothy went quickly up to her.
"You must let me remove these things, and get you into bed at once," she said coaxingly but firmly. "Your face is scarlet, and your hands tremble. You must take some hot lemonade, and go quietly to sleep."
Jessie was quite passive under her commands, but the pain in her head did not seem to abate.
For long hours, Dorothy worked patiently with her to allay the fever, but it seemed to increase with every moment.
She wanted to arouse the household, and send for a doctor, but Jessie pleaded most pitifully.
"You are very, very ill," cried Dorothy, in agony. "I must send for some one, or you will die!"
"Hush! I want to die!" cried Jessie, in a low whisper; "that is just it; I do not want to live."
Dorothy tried to soothe her, thinking it was but the idle vagaries of a wandering mind.
"Hush!" cried Jessie, sinking back on her pillow, and clutching frantically the hand that held hers. "You must not call any one. I want to die! I am so tired of living. I want to tell you my story, Mrs. Brown – it seems to me that I shall go wild if I do not tell some one; and you seem so sympathetic and kind. May I trust you?" she whispered, with a great tremor in her voice.
"Yes," said Dorothy, slowly; "anything that you may say to me I will hold sacred."
"You are very good," returned the other. "You would think," she began, quickly, "that with wealth, and being the fiancée of a noble young man like Mr. Garner, and so soon to marry him, that I was the happiest girl in the world."
"Yes," returned the other, choking back a sob.
"I was not always surrounded by wealth and affluence, as you see me now," commenced Jessie Staples, burying her head in her pillow. "Only a few short months ago I was poorer than you are now, and worked for my daily bread. Among the companions who stood side by side with me was one, a lovely girl whom I loved with all my heart.
"She was gay and thoughtless, the life of the work-room, with her bright, girlish, mischievous pranks. Though they called her 'Madcap Dorothy,' yet every one loved her for her bright, winning ways.
"There was one employed in the same place whom I had loved ever since I could remember – loved in secret, making no sign, for it was hopeless – as he loved pretty Madcap Dorothy, and loved her with all the strength of his great, noble, manly heart.
"I was her best friend, even though she was in secret my rival. I did not care for myself. I only wanted to see the two whom I loved so well happy. One of them was Jack Garner, and the other Dorothy; and I will tell you of her."
"She was young, and gay, and pretty, as I have said, and she knew it. She knew that she had all of Jack's heart, but she longed for more heroes to conquer.
"One fatal day – oh, how well I remember it! – she fell in love with a handsome, black-eyed stranger – a car conductor on Broadway. That was the beginning of the end for Jack, who loved her so. One fatal day she ran away with the stranger and was never heard of again.
"Rumor has it that later on he tired of her, and was soon to lead to the altar a proud and lovely young girl – a school-girl – who had never known what it was to earn her bread, as did poor, pretty Madcap Dorothy.
"Dorothy's desertion nearly cost Jack Garner his life. I went and nursed him and took care of him; and when he recovered, his mother was stricken low, and I in turn nursed her.
"In the darkest hour of that terrible illness, when we were all gathered about her bedside, waiting for the angel of death to stoop and bear her away to that bright land that knows no grief nor partings, suddenly she beckoned Jack near her.
"'Oh, mother, is there anything that you wish?' he cried. 'Anything that I can do for you? Tell me if there is.'
"'Yes,' she whispered, 'there is one thing you could do, my son, that would make death easier to me. I – I could die happy if you would do as I ask.'
"'I promise you beforehand, mother,' he cried, 'if there is anything which I can do, it shall be done.'
"Feebly her hand crept toward mine and drew it toward Jack's, clasping them both together.
"'She has saved your life, my boy,' she whispered, 'and she has been as faithful as an angel to me – unto the last of mine. If you care for your mother's wishes, ask her to marry you, here and now. I love her as dearly as my life, Jack. My one wish in this world is to see you wedded to each other. You must say "Yes" or "No."'
"He buried his head in his hands, and I could see his stalwart form shake like a reed in a blast.
"He hesitated, but only for an instant. Slowly he raised his head, and I could see that his face was as white as death, in the dim-shaded light of the lamp. Then slowly he stretched out his hand toward me.
"'You know of my past, Jessie,' he said, huskily, 'and you know that my life-hopes were blasted. Will you take me under these conditions – if not for my sake, for – for my mother's?'
"I could not tell you the emotions that swept through my heart in that one moment of time.
"I do not know in what words I answered him; but, even without scarcely realizing what I did, my hand crept into his strong, cold one, and I nodded my head. I could not have spoken to have saved my life – my heart was too full for utterance.
"Mrs. Garner did not die that night, and she has always said ever since that she believed that promise brought her back from the gates of death to be a living witness to our happiness.
"Three months passed, with, oh! such unspeakable joy for me. My lover was all that a lover could be; still, there were times when I thought Jack's heart was not in his words, but was far away with the girl who had so cruelly jilted him.
"At length the wedding invitations were printed and sent out, and only a week later the terrible dénouement came that has shattered all my hopes.
"I was about to enter Mrs. Garner's boudoir one night, when I heard the sound of voices.
"Playfully I drew back, for I had recognized Jack's voice. I had a little gift for him, and I was hesitating a moment as to whether I should take it in and lay it on his lap, or wait until the next morning and give it to him in the library. Jack was pacing up and down, and I saw through the door, which was slightly ajar, that his face was very pale and stormy – and this was something unusual with calm, placid, courteous Jack.
"'For Heaven's sake, don't nag me any more, mother,' he cried, 'or you will drive me mad! Constant dripping will in time wear out even a stone. I have ruined my life to satisfy one of your whims; surely that ought to suffice. If I can't have peace in the house, I will take my hat and walk out of it. I can not endure this eternal nagging, that I must treat Jessie better – more as becomes a betrothed lover. You know very well that I do not love her. My marriage with her will be all your doing. My heart is with Dorothy; and when a man loves as I loved her, even if that love is destroyed, no one can ever fill the same niche in his affections. It is an impossibility. So, have done with this subject, mother, at once and forever.
"'I shall marry Jessie, because I am pledged to do so. I will make her life as happy as I can. She need never know that my heart is not hers, although she will bear my name.'
"I – I – never knew how I groped my way into an adjoining room," continued Jessie, "and there I sank down unconscious.
"How long I remained there I never knew. When I came to, Mrs. Garner, greatly frightened, was kneeling beside me and laving my face with eau-de-Cologne.
"And I knew by the fearful look in her eyes that she suspected that I had found out about Jack not caring for me.
"'Tell me what is the matter, my little Jessie!' she said, clasping me in her arms and pillowing my head on her breast.
"In broken gasps I told her, adding that I was going away – back to the poverty from which they had taken me, and Jack should never see my face again. Oh! how she prayed and pleaded with me on her bended knees, crying out:
"'If you love me, Jessie, do not break from Jack. I am sure he did not mean all he said. He was only incensed a little at me. He would not have you know it for the whole wide world. Oh, believe me, Jessie! Do not try to break my heart by your rash action. The marriage invitations have gone forth. What could we say to the people? Think of the scandal, Jessie, and save us from it. Let my words be a prayer to you. I am older than you are, Jessie. Let me tell you how this will be:
"'There might be in his heart only deep respect for you, but when he marries you, he will learn to love you. Every man loves his wife.'
"Against my own will and my better judgment, I allowed her to persuade me.
"I made no mention to Jack of what I had learned, but every day it has eaten into my heart like a worm in the heart of a rose.
"I loved him so well, I was only too willing to hold to him. I did not have the strength to follow the dictates of my own will; and now, God help me! the day is drawing nearer and nearer. What shall I do?
"My brain is going mad with the torturous thought that I shall stand at the altar by the side of a man who does not love me – whose heart is given to another.
"Every time that he stoops to kiss my lips I am sure he wishes they were hers.
"His thoughts are with her. I am a mere shadow to his life; she was the substance.
"People about me look upon me with envy, but you can realize that I am more to be pitied than the poorest beggar on the street. Tell me," she cried, eagerly, "do you think any one on this earth ever had a sorrow equal to mine?"