Red Shadows

3

Washed out tight jeans and white shirt wrapped to his chest and arms. When had Ash put on that wicked body? It seemed that these dresses were sewn on his skin. The artfully disheveled hair made my hands itch to the desire to stuffing them with my fingers and tighten them while I plundered his mouth. Those lips and that angelic smile were a temptation which rekindled my cock instantly.

Shit, it was not possible that I had fucked up until this point. I was watching him while friends embraced him and laughed with him, making him the good wishes. He reciprocated every hug and every smile, and I felt jealous of each one.

«Sean, I go away with Elise. Ash will celebrate until morning at least, and I do not want to know what he will do. I trust him and I know he will not do shit. Besides, I think he has got a boyfriend.»

I turned to Cam that with a smile was watching his brother.

«What makes you think so?»

«Last night by chance I saw a hickey on his neck.»

For a moment I missed my breath. I did not remember having made him a hickey, but there were many things I did not remember. Ash had told me that we had touched and kissed, but for me the memories were still confused between dream and reality. Except for what had happened in the shower. What I remember is perfectly clear, every caress, every moan, every desire I had while he was in my arms.

Cameron went away and I stood like an idiot staring at Ash wishing what I could not have. Then he looked up and his eyes were on mine. His smile spread more and gave me a slight nod. I did not answered, I only looked at him. I was not an insecure man and always knew what I wanted, I knew how to bring a man or a woman when I wanted to fuck, but with him I was totally helpless, baffled by all that he made me feel, devastated by what he made me want.

I kept telling myself that I should spend the evening to look for a man to vent my desires, and instead I could only go from angry to trying to breathe when my cock threatened to get out of my pants while I was looking at him. Ash was definitely making me pay for my refusal. After that initial smile, he had not look at me once, or so it seemed. He continued to flirt with a guy who certainly had at least my age.

He placed his hands on his hips as Ash danced the small runway with sensual moves, shaking that sinful ass I wanted for myself. When they were not dancing, he fished some ice from a glass and he rubbed it on his neck, laughing, while the idiot looked at him, biting his lips. I could bet that his cock was hard and that if he could he would have fucked Ash immediately. The bastard was getting closer and closer and I could not stop watching.

The others had vanished. Who was left and who was on the dance floor or at the bar drinking and chatting, probably they had also told me something before I they leave, but my attention was only for him. That damn kid that reduced me to a pile of desire and anger that was about to explode.

I moved only when I realized he was going away and that this bastard was leaving behind. I knew he would go in the bathroom and anger mounted inside me with the force of a hurricane. I do not give a shit if he was celebrating his birthday, I did not give a fuck even if that was his boyfriend. The day before he had been in my bed, in my shower and told me he want me, now probably he is going to have sex in a toilet with an idiot who did not even know.

I knew I should leave him alone. I was the one to tell him that among us there could be anything and I felt like a little girl betrayed by her first love, but my reasoning powers seemed completely gone when I entered the room, opening the door. Damn, I was pissed. The boys there looked at me and hurried to leave the room, they knew that I would not hurt any of them, but they also knew that when I was angry they had to keep a safe distance. Ash had to be in one of the bathrooms and while clenched my fists trying to calm myself not to make a scene in a crazy hysterical style, one of the doors opened and he came out quiet. Alone. He looked around and smiled at me.

«Do you kicked everyone out of the bathroom?»

I stared at him but did not move while he went to the sink to rinse his hands. Another door opened and another guy came out calmly, but quickly leave the bathroom just after looked at me.

«What the fuck are you doing Ash?» I asked him with a snarl.

«What the fuck do you want to be doing in a bathroom Sean? I pissed and now I wash my hands,» he replied smiling.

«Do not get too smart with me, boy. I'm not really in the mood for tricks .»

«What tricks do you mean? And stop with this story of the little boy!»

«Where's your boyfriend? He's waiting outside?»

«Oh, I see. My brother asked you to control me and you're doing everything like a snarling guard dog? Well, you can tell him that I've been a good boy. Me and that guy we danced, flirted a little bit and stop. He went off with his friends, and I will reach them when we have completed this kind of scene.»

I approached him, relieved that the idiot would not have touched him, but still excited because my body could not stop to remember him as he moved on the track.

«You are playing with fire, Ash,» I said, lowering my voice.

«I'm not doing anything, Sean. Until a few days ago you don’t give a fuck if I was or was not with someone and you feel now right to break my balls? You were clear yesterday and although I don’t like it, I do accept it. Now l I’ll be clear with you. I'm eighteen, I'm not a child, and I do whatever I want with who I want. If you and my brother don’t agree, it is your problem. Moreover, do you have nothing better to do than control myself while he fucks his girlfriend?»

Amused I approached him and pushed him into one of the bathrooms.

«I do not think your brother has taught you to speak to other people in this way ...»

Those lips, those damn lips were like the call of a siren. He was pissed off and his breathing quickened and damn ... I wanted him so much. Having tasted him only had made me hungrier.

«What the heck do you want, Sean? You want me to go home by midnight like Cinderella? Do you want my ass remaining chaste? Well you arrive a bit later for that.» Ash snapped.

Anger and jealousy came back loud and pushed my desire of him to the limit. I shoot up him pasting my mouth to his. I knew I wanted him, I felt it, but he pushed me away. His eyes blazed and fuck he was even more beautiful so surprised and angry.

«I will not kiss you only to be rejected, Sean. I want you, but I know that then your paranoia will be back. I may be only eighteen but I'm not so stupid to hurt myself.»

Without another word he passed near me and left the room leaving me with an hard cock and an open mouth like a fool. I had vastly underestimated him.

When I came out of the bathroom I looked for him with my eyes. He was sitting at the table with his friends with a beer in front. I tried to look inside of me for all the good reasons that were supposed to convince me to stay away from him and turn my attention to someone else, when the King’s doors burst open and a young girl began screaming for help. I went running toward her, and when she saw me he looked at me with big brown eyes full of tears.

«Two guys..., down the road are beating my brother ...»

Axel and Colin were close to me and just a look between us was enough. I retrieved the gun that I kept tied to the ankle and I released the safety catch. We ran to the end of the alley and saw two boys intent to take another kick. They did not hear us coming and when we were close enough, I pointed the gun and screamed.

«Let him go or I'll blow your head off!»

In my peripheral vision I saw Axel and Colin also point their guns and advance slowly. I was not sure if the two bastards were not armed, but it was too late to think about it. They turned, raising their hands, laughing.

«Be quiet, Shadow, we were just doing two caresses to our friend. You know that if Lucas wish we can take you all down. But our boss has a soft heart and want let your shit people to become part of the Devils. Your friend here has declined the invitation so rudely and deserved punishment.»

They took a step back and then another, always with a mocking smile Colin and Axel came to the lying boy, while I remained motionless staring at the two Devils. I saw them look and move an arm ... it was at that moment that I fired. Axel and Colin did the same. We took them both. One to the thigh and the other to the shoulder and again we shot before they had time to take their weapons. They started to run and we fired again. One of them was hit again and fell to the ground, the other races and reached a car. We left him go and we approached the one to the ground.

«You know what is the fault of you bastards? That you are too sure, tough, arrogant, but you have no brain. The next time you step into my territory, that you hurt one of my neighborhood I'll send you out to your boss in a plastic bag.»

I bowed, grabbed his face and shook his jaw as I pressed on his wound with my foot.

«If you can not die, tell your boss that he should very well know that he should not piss me off.»

I rose up and turned to Axel.

«Take this dick out of my territory. Leave him somewhere, I do not care if he does not survive.»

I waited for Axel and Colin to go away and turned to the voices behind me. Near the boy lying in the street there was Connor and Ryan. I looked at the latter that he gave me a nod. When I moved my eyes on Connor my message was clear. He would take care of the beaten boy.

I went back to the King and decided to go home and when I reached the car I found Ash leaning against the hood. He looked at me silently and I surrendered to the need I had of him beside me. I opened the door and before getting in I looked at him.

«Come on.»

He did not answer and he went up putting himself in the passenger seat. I was not interested at that time if someone would see us, I would have thought about it the next day. We made the trip up to my house in silence. There was not a heavy silence of those who do not know what to say, it was just a waiting silence. Waiting to be alone, safe, together. Waiting to give ourselves the certainty that between us there was something we could not ignore, like my need to tighten him, kiss him, touch him. As his need to stand by me because he knew how much I hated to hurt someone. He was a boy but knew me very well.

4

The entrance was lit by a small lamp as we entered into the house. I ever let it turned on as my mother had taught me, so as to avoid crashing on the mobile at the entrance as I tried to get to the switch that was not next to the door. I had never been able to understand why my father had put it in a so awkward position and he had never move it somewhere else.

I removed the gun from the ankle where I had shed it after the clash with the Devils and leaned it on the table watching it. Ash came up and clasped my hips making me turn towards him. I wanted to say something, but I did not even know what. It seemed almost absurd that he was there with me, it seemed absurd that I wanted him exactly where he was.

«Ash, I ...»

«Shh. We'll talk later. Now you need to take a shower and relax a bit.»

He took my hand leading me to the bathroom and I wondered if he'd taken a shower with me. He told me he did not want me to kiss him, and I understood. Between us there could not be just a fuck. For the bond that I had with his brother, the respect I had for him, but above all, because of what I felt it was beyond a fuck even if I struggled to admit it.

In the bathroom, he turned on the light and opened the shower, then went in front of me. He pulled the black T-shirt and opened my jeans while I was trying to take off my shoes with my feet.

He waited until I was in bare feet before pushing my jeans and boxers down. I was naked in front of him and did not know whether to undress him or not. He pushed me into the shower. I turned to look at him holding him. I do not want him to move away, questioning him silently. He let go my hand, but smiled sweetly.

«Come in. I'll be there in a minute,» Ash said to me in a sweet way.

But I did not move. I watched as he undressed, eating him with my eyes.

«Come on, Sean, enter into the shower.»

While the hot water bathed us and he closed the shower door, I looked at him and smiled.

«You're making the part of an adult with me, little boy?» I said smiling.

«You'd be surprised to know how much I am, despite I’m only eighteen.»

«You like to say it, don’t you?»

«What?»

«That you now are eighteen.»

He took the shampoo and poured a bit on the hand before distributing the liquid on my hair. His hands were pleasant, but I wanted to kiss him. I wanted to kiss him so much that I could not seem to think of anything else.

«Nothing has changed Sean. I knew who I was and what I want yesterday that I was seventeen,» he answered.

I heard him, but I could not answer, focused on his hands in my hair and on his mouth. I did not dare to look down and watch his body because I knew I lost control and I would just reasoning with my dick. And Ash deserved more, deserved better.

I thought again that it was wrong we were together. Again in the shower, naked again, again with that desire that can not make me think lucidly.

«Stop thinking, Sean. You'll have time tomorrow to go back into paranoia. Tonight we do not need it. So shut up.»

«Do you also read my mind now?»

«Let's finish this shower. So then we can go to sleep.»

To sleep? I thought he had come home with me because he wanted to have sex. Did he wanted to sleep? Crist, I would never be able to keep my hands to myself. It was probably better than I took him home right away. I would had to think about what the fuck I was doing before we got in the car. Now everything would become a big mess, and ... and his mouth captured mine.

Shit, it really seemed that he was the adult between the two of us.

«I hear the hamster in your head that runs like a madman in the wheel. Make him rest Sean.»

«You're treating me like a moron, Ash,» I said huffily.

«Yes, as long as you continue to be a moron. Do you think that your body does not tell me what you want even if you do not speak? That way you’re looking at me is not clear enough to tell me that you want me?»

«Ash ..» I moaned eager and frustrated.

«Enough. I do not want to spend what's left of my birthday to discuss with you about your paranoia and the fact that you do not want to tell me that you love me even if it is clear that it is so.»

I picked up a bit of my manhood and I grabbed him by the hips turning him and pushing him against the wall. I grabbed the bubble bath and let it slip a few drops down his back.

«Since when you've become so wise?» I asked, beginning to touch him.

My hands slipped slowly on his wet skin and my sex awoke completely. I wanted to hug him, squeeze him and feel his body against mine. I needed him so much, I was almost breathless and my hands did not seem quite full of him. I wanted to squeeze his cock and feel him enjoy it for me, feel that he arced from my touch, that he wanted more. I wanted to hear he wanted me with the same intensity with which I wanted him. I wanted to be able to control myself, to regain my mental faculties, but that damn boy now annulled all.

I slipped with my hands on his hips. He spoke, his voice hoarse and low, but I was not listening anymore. I went over and unable to resist I leaned to him and felt his ass against my cock, his back against my chest and I could not control my hands as if they were guided by their own will, slipping from his hips to his belly, going on his stomach, on his abs then dropped down to his hard sex. I began to kiss his neck, tasting his skin, playing with the lobe of his ear.

«You make me lose control, Ash, you make me want to have you all to myself, just for me. You make me go crazy. I should control myself, reflect and know that it is not a good idea, but when you're with me I do not give a shit about anything. I do not know when I started to look at you, wanting you, but now I seem I do it forever. If we go along, if we end up in bed, if I enter into you I will not be able to let you go and it is unfair. I know it and you know it too, but do not care because the only thing I want is you. I should stop, you should stop ...»

Ash turned. Narrowed eyes, hatched lips. It was a pretty damn exciting vision and my dick is even more hardened. He put his arms around my neck, pulling me toward him as our erections touched and sending sparks up the spine.

«I will not stop you. Stop fighting Sean, love me and that's it.»

«You're only eighteen years old and ...»

«Enough of this story. I want you, I know who you are, I know what you hide in your eyes, and in your heart. I know, always know since we lost our parents. And I know you want me. We think about consequences if there are any, now I want you and that’s all.»

I went crazy by the desire to have him, yet I was still hesitant. It was a struggle between heart and reason, and both were strong and wanted to win. When Ash kissed me, I left him decide for both. I returned his kiss, gently stroking his lips with my tongue, while the hot water enveloped us relaxing our minds, but further energizing our bodies. Reluctantly, I moved away from him, who looked confused.

«We finish this shower so I can take you to bed.»

He smiled and we finished quickly to wash. Once out of the shower I wrapped Ash in a soft towel, took one for me and wrapped it on my hips. We were going in the bedroom when my phone began to ring. I paused a moment and then took Ash's hand going towards the bedroom.

«Do you not answer?»

«No, I need you now. Anyone can wait.»

Ash approached me taking off his towel and grabbing my to do the same. The phone stopped ringing to start soon after. I ignored him still preferring to concentrate on the curve of Ash’s ass on which I had placed my hands. He had a perfect hard ass and would soon be mine. But the phone did not stop ringing. Ash lifted his face, kissing under the chin and sliding his hands on my hips.

«It might be important, Sean. Answer it, I wait for you on bed.»

Saying that he turned away from me as light as a feather to go and lie on the bed. I watched him for a few seconds, then turned to go and retrieve the phone cursing whoever was calling.

«Hello?»

«Come on. Hurry, there are news.»

«What happened?»

«Not on the phone. I called everyone. Join us at the usual place.»

Shit, they would not let me even fuck in peace. But Connor's serious tone does not bode good. I rubbed my face with the palm of the hand and went back to the bedroom.

«Do not tell me. You have to go…» he told me soon as I finished the call.

«I'm sorry kiddo, it seems that we can not celebrate your birthday as it should.»

«Never mind, we put away for another day perhaps. Everything is alright?»

«I do not know yet. I'll take you home, ok?»

«I' prefer to expect you here.»

«I could be gone all night Ash.»

«I do not care. Go, do what you have and come back to me,» he said smiling.

«You're hunting for trouble to be with me, Ash.»

I returned the smile, happy that he wanted to wait for me.

«Are you saying we're together? Are you my boyfriend?» Ash asked defiantly.

«I'm saying it will be a mess,» I retorted.

Ash got out of bed and joined me while I grabbed my jeans and a clean jersey from the closet.

«Are you worried about it, Sean, I see it. And I do not think for both of us. What is going on?»

I finished dressing, took his face and I obliged to look at me straight in the eye.

«Do you wait for me here?»

«Do not get yourself killed.»

With one last kiss I let him go and I left the house after having recovered the gun.

The place was usually an old abandoned warehouse, where we found ourselves together whenever we had to decide something. When I entered they were all already there. I looked over and I saw Cameron approach me with a couple of beers in hand and he extended one to me.

«Has Connor ruined the evening to you too, huh?»

I clapped my beer against his, but I did not answer. We approached the others and waited until Connor spoke. Ryan spoke.

«It was reported that Montero has moved the date to delivery the goods. They will meet at dawn. They called me while I carried the boy with Connor to the emergency room. We have to anticipate the times, guys.»

«Why have they anticipated?» I asked looking at Ryan.

«I do not know, but I guess since he just had our expense wants ahead of the times with them to organize the shop. My bosses have been warned and we are ready.»

I looked at my Shadows, one by one. I knew they were waiting for me.

«The exchange between Montero and the Devils will go wrong, since we have already placed their merchandise. When Montero will think he was played, he will make a big mess between his men and the Devils, then the police will intervene and proceed with the arrests. We hope that Lucas will be furious and he will want to find the guilty. If everything will go like we planned, he will not be content to let out his henchmen, and he will be then that we let him know the fact that we sold his merchandise. He'll want money and our skin. We have no other way to do it out in the open, we have to piss him off. The police is trying to capture him for years, but there is no evidence linking the activities of the Devils to him. It is dangerous, but it is the only way to get it out and maybe take back our lives. Now we are well covered and we are not alone, but it does not mean it will be a walk in the park.»

They looked at me and Axel came forward.

«Sean, we watch our backs since when we are small, we protected this neighborhood alone as best as we could, waiting for the day when the Devils would pay. I say let's do it.»

The others nodded. I looked at their faces and I saw no trace of doubt. Finally I looked at Ryan.

«Tell your boss that we are ready.»

I looked again at my friends, my Shadows.

«Go home. Do what you want tonight. Tomorrow Ryan will notify us as soon as the bomb will explode.»

They went all away and I remained with Cameron.

«My brother is around to celebrate, and I'm going back to Elise. What will you do?»

I smiled, but I did not answer him and I do not looked into his eyes. I would not be able to lie to him. I waved his hand and left the store. I just wanted to go back to Ash.