Chapter Thirty Four.
For the execution of all form, observance, ceremony, subordination, and the like, even though, while he compels obedience, he may get himself privately laughed at, commend me to our governor, Don Fabricio.
Humours of Madrid.
In a few days, Courtenay, with the prize crew of the Aspasia, sailed for Barbadoes in the frigate which had been ordered to receive them for a passage. The frigate was commanded by one of the most singular characters in the service. He was a clever man, a thorough sailor, and well acquainted with the details and technicalities of the profession — a spirited and enterprising officer, but of the most arbitrary disposition. So well was he acquainted with the regulations of the service, that he could hedge himself in so as to insure a compliance with the most preposterous orders, or draw the officer who resisted into a premunire which would risk his commission.
In a profession where one man is embarked with many, isolated from the power whence he derives his own where his fiat must be received without a murmur by hundreds who can reason as well as himself it is absolutely requisite that he should be invested with an authority amounting to despotism. True it is that he is held responsible to his superiors for any undue exercise of this authority: but amongst so many to whom it is confided, there must be some who, from disposition, or the bad example of those under whom they have served, will not adhere to the limits which have been prescribed. This, however, is no reason for reducing that authority, which, as you govern wholly by opinion, is necessary for the discipline which upholds the service; but it is a strong reason for not delegating it to those who are not fit to be intrusted.
Captain Bradshaw had many redeeming qualities. Oppressor as he was, he admired a spirit of resistance in an officer when it was shown in a just cause, and, upon reflection, was invariably his friend, for he felt that his own natural temperament was increased by abject obedience. Raynal, I think it is, has said that “the pride of men in office arises as much from the servility of their inferiors or expectants as from any other cause.” In our service they are all inferiors, and all expectants. Can it then be surprising that a captain occasionally becomes tyrannical? But Captain Bradshaw was not naturally tyrannical: he had become so, because, promoted at an early age, he had never been afterwards opposed; no one contradicted him; every one applauded his jokes, and magnified his mirth into wit. He would try by a court-martial an officer who had committed a slight error, and on the same day would open his purse and extend his patronage to another whom he knew not, but had been informed that he was deserving, and had no friends. To his seamen he was as lavish with his money as he was with the cat. He would give a man a new jacket one day, and cut it to pieces on his back with a rope’s end on the next. Yet it was not exactly inconsistency — it was an eccentricity of character — not natural, but created by the service. The graft was of a worse quality than the parent stock, and the fruit was a compound of the two. The sailors, who are of the most forgiving temper in the world, and will pardon a hundred faults for one redeeming quality, declared that “he warn’t a bad captain after all.”
His violent and tyrannical disposition made him constantly at variance with his officers, and continual changes took place in his ship; but it was observed, that those who had left him from a spirited resistance were kindly received, and benefited by his patronage, while those who submitted were neglected. Like a pretty but clever woman, who is aware that flattery is to be despised, and yet, from habit, cannot exist without it so Captain Bradshaw exacted the servility which he had been accustomed to, yet rewarded not those by whom it was administered. All the midshipmen promoted on the station had to pass through the ordeal of sailing with Captain Bradshaw, who generally had a vacancy; and it certainly had a good effect upon those young men who were inclined to presume upon their newly acquired rank: for they were well schooled before they quitted his ship.
When Courtenay and his party went on board of the frigate, the first-lieutenant, master, and surgeon, indignant at language which had been used to them by the captain, refused to dine in the cabin, when they were invited by the steward, who reported to Captain Bradshaw that the officers would not accept his invitation.
“Won’t they, by God? I’ll see to that. Send my clerk here.”
The clerk made his appearance, with an abject bow.
“Mr Powell, sit down, and write as I dictate,” said Captain Bradshaw, who, walking up and down the fore-cabin, composed a memorandum, in which, after a long preamble, the first-lieutenant, master, and surgeon, were directed to dine with him every day, until further orders. Captain Bradshaw, having signed it, sent for the first-lieutenant, and delivered it himself into his hands.
“Ferguson! — Bradly!” cried the first-lieutenant, entering the gun-room, with the paper in his hand, “here’s something for all three of us, — a positive order to dine with the skipper every day, until he gets tired of our company.”
“I’ll be hanged if I do,” replied the surgeon. “I’ll put myself in the sick-list.”
“And if I am obliged to go, I’ll not touch anything,” rejoined the master. “There’s an old proverb, ‘you may lead a horse to the pond, but you can’t make him drink.’”
“Whatever we do,” replied Roberts, the first-lieutenant, “we must act in concert; but I have been long enough in the service to know that we must obey first, and remonstrate afterwards. That this is an unusual order, I grant, nor do I know by what regulations of the service it can be enforced; but at the same time I consider that we run a great risk in refusing to obey it. Only observe, in the preamble, how artfully he inserts ‘appearance of a conspiracy, tending to bring him into contempt;’ and again, ‘for the better discipline of his Majesty’s service, which must invariably suffer when there is an appearance of want of cordiality between those to whom the men must look for example.’ Upon my soul, he’s devilish clever. I do believe he’d find out a reason for drawing out all our double teeth, if he was inclined, and prove it was all for the benefit of his Majesty’s service. Well, now, what’s to be done?”
“Why, what’s your opinion, Roberts?”
“Oh, mine is to go; and if you will act with me, he won’t allow us to dine with him a second time.”
“Well, then, I agree,” replied the surgeon.
“And so must I, then, I presume; but, by heavens, downright tyranny and oppression.”
“Never mind; listen to me. Let’s all go, and all behave as ill as we can — be as unmannerly as bears — abuse everything — be as familiar as possible, and laugh in his face. He cannot touch us for it, if we do not go too far — and he’ll not trouble us to come a second time.”
Their plans were arranged; and at three o’clock they were ushered into the cabin, with one of the midshipmen of the ship, and Jerry, who, as a stranger, had been honoured with an invitation. Captain Bradshaw, whose property was equal to his liberality, piqued himself upon keeping a good table; his cook was an artiste, and his wines were of the very best quality. After all, there was no great hardship in dining with him — but, “upon compulsion!” — No. The officers bowed. The captain, satisfied with their obedience, intended, although he had brought them there by force, to do the honours of his table with the greatest urbanity.
“Roberts,” said he, “do me the favour to take the foot of the table. — Doctor, here’s a chair for you. — Mr Bradly, come round on this side. Now, then, steward, off covers, and let us see what you have for us. Why, youngster, does your captain starve you?”
“No, sir,” replied Jerry, who knew what was going on; “but he don’t give me a dinner every day.”
“Humph!” muttered the captain, who thought Mr Jerry very free upon so short an acquaintance.
The soup was handed round; the first spoonful that Roberts took in his mouth, he threw out on the snow-white deck, crying out, as soon as his mouth was empty, “O Lord!”
“Why, what’s the matter?” inquired the captain.
“So cursed hot, I’ve burnt my tongue.”
“Oh, that’s all? — steward, wipe up that mess,” said the captain, who was rather nice in his eating.
“Do you know Jemmy Cavan, sir, at Barbadoes?” inquired the doctor.
“No, sir, I know no Jemmies,” replied Captain Bradshaw, surprised at his familiar address.
“He’s a devilish good fellow, sir, I can tell you. When he gets you on shore, he’ll make you dine with him every day, whether or not. He’ll take no denial.”
“Now, that’s what I call a damned good fellow: you don’t often meet a chap like him,” observed the master.
Captain Bradshaw felt that he was indirectly called a chap, which did not please him.
“Mr Bradly, will you take some mutton?”
“If you please,” said the master.
“Roberts, I’ll trouble you to carve the saddle of mutton.”
The first-lieutenant cut out a slice, and taking it on the fork, looked at it suspiciously, and then held his nose over it.
“Why, what’s the matter?”
“Rather high, sir, I’m afraid.”
“Oh, I smell it here,” said Jerry, who entered into the joke.
“Indeed! Steward, remove that dish; fortunately, it is not all our dinner. What will you take, Mr Bradly?”
“Why, really, I seldom touch anything but the joint. I hate your kickshaws, there’s so much pawing about them. I’ll wait, if you please; in the meantime, I’ll drink a glass of wine with you, Captain Bradshaw.”
“The devil you will!” was nearly out of the captain’s mouth, at this reversal of the order of things; but he swallowed it down, and answered, in a surly tone, “With great pleasure, sir.”
“Come, doctor, let you and I hob and nob,” said the first-lieutenant. They did so, and clicked their glasses together with such force as to break them both, and spill the wine upon the fine damask table-cloth. Jerry could contain himself no longer, but burst out into a roar of laughter, to the astonishment of Captain Bradshaw, who never had seen a midshipman thus conduct himself at his table before: but Jerry could not restrain his inclination for joining with the party, although he had no excuse for his behaviour.
“Bring some wine-glasses, steward; and you’ll excuse me, gentlemen, but I will thank you not to try the strength of them again,” said Captain Bradshaw, with a very majestic air.
“Now, Mr Ferguson, I shall be happy to take a glass of wine with you. What will you have? There’s sherry and Moselle.”
“I prefer champagne, if you please,” answered the surgeon, who knew that Captain Bradshaw did not produce it except when strangers were at the table.
Captain Bradshaw restrained his indignation, and ordered champagne to be brought.
“I’ll join you,” cried the first-lieutenant, shoving in his glass.
“Come, younker, let you and I have a glass cosy together,” said Jerry to the midshipman, who, frightened at what was going on, moved his chair a little further from Jerry, and then looked first at him and then at the captain.
“Oh, pray take a glass with the young gentleman,” said Captain Bradshaw, with mock politeness.
“Come, steward, none of your half allowance, if you please,” continued the impertinent Jerry. “Now, then, my cock, here’s towards you, and ‘better luck still.’”
Captain Bradshaw was astonished. “I say, youngster, did Captain M — ever flog you?”
“No, sir,” replied Jerry, demurely, perceiving that he had gone too far; “he always treats his officers like gentlemen.”
“Then, I presume, sir, when they are on board of his ship, that they conduct themselves as gentlemen.”
This hint made Jerry dumb for some time; the officers, however, continued as before. The surgeon dropped his plate, full of damascene tart, on the deck. The first-lieutenant spilt his snuff on the table-cloth, and laid his snuff-box on the table, which he knew to be the captain’s aversion; and the master requested a glass of grog, as the rotgut French wines had given him a pain in the bowels. Captain Bradshaw could hardly retain his seat upon the chair, upon which he fidgeted right and left. He perceived that his officers were behaving in a very unusual manner, and that it was with a view to his annoyance: yet it was impossible for him to take notice of breaking glasses, and finding fault with the cookery, which they took care to do, sending their plates away before they had eaten a mouthful, with apparent disgust; neither could he demand a court-martial for awkwardness or want of good manners at his own table. He began to think that he had better have left out the “every day until further orders,” in the memorandum, as rescinding it immediately would have been an acknowledgment of their having gained the victory; and as to their going on in this way, to put up with it was impossible.
The dinner was over, and the dessert placed on the table. Captain Bradshaw passed the bottles round, helping himself to Madeira. Roberts took claret, and as soon as he had tasted it, “I beg your pardon, Captain Bradshaw,” said he, “but this wine is corked.”
“Indeed — take it away, steward, and bring another bottle.”
Another was put on the table.
“I hope you will find that better, Mr Roberts,” said the captain, who really thought that what he stated had been the case.
“Yes,” replied the first-lieutenant; “for the description of wine, it’s well enough.”
“What do you mean, sir? Why, its Château Margaux of the first growth.”
“Excuse me, sir,” replied the officer, with an incredulous smile; “they must have imposed upon you.”
Captain Bradshaw, who was an excellent judge of wine, called for a glass, and pouring out the claret, tasted it. “I must differ from you, sir; and, moreover, I have no better.”
“Then I’ll trouble you to pass the port, doctor, for I really cannot drink that stuff.”
“Do you drink port, Mr Bradly?” said the captain, with a countenance as black as a thunder-cloud.
“No, not to-day; I am not well in my inside: but I’ll punish the port to-morrow.”
“So will I,” said the surgeon.
“And as I am not among the privileged,” added Jerry, who had already forgotten the hint, “I’ll take my whack to-day.”
“Perhaps you may,” observed the captain, drily.
The officers now began to be very noisy, arguing among themselves upon points of service, and taking no notice whatever of the captain. The master, in explanation, drew a chart, with wine, upon the polished table, while the first-lieutenant defended his opinion with pieces of biscuit, laid at different positions — during which two more glasses were demolished.
The captain rang, and ordered coffee in an angry tone. When the officers had taken it, he bowed stiffly, and wished them good evening.
There was one dish which was an object of abhorrence to Captain Bradshaw. The first-lieutenant, aware of it, as they rose to depart, said, “Captain Bradshaw, if it’s not too great a liberty, we should like to have some tripe to-morrow. We are all three very partial to it.”
“So am I,” rejoined Jerry.
Captain Bradshaw could hold out no longer. “Leave the cabin immediately, gentlemen. By heavens, you shall never put your legs under my table again.”
“Are we not to dine here to-morrow, sir?” replied the first-lieutenant with affected surprise; “the order says, ‘every day.’”
“Till further orders,” roared the captain; “and now you have them, for I’ll be damned if ever you dine with me again.”
The officers took their departure, restraining their mirth until they gained the gun-room: and Jerry was about to follow, when Captain Bradshaw caught him by the arm.
“Stop, my young gentleman, you’ve not had your ‘whack,’ yet.”
“I’ve had quite sufficient, sir, I thank you,” replied Jerry; “an excellent dinner — many thanks to your hospitality.”
“Yes, but I must now give you your dessert.”
“I’ve had my dessert and coffee too, sir,” said Jerry, trying to escape.
“But you have not had your chasse-café, and I cannot permit you to leave the cabin without it. Steward, desire a boatswain’s mate to bring his cat, and a quarter-master to come here with seizings.”
Jerry was now in a stew — the inflexible countenance of Captain Bradshaw showed that he was in earnest. However, he held his tongue until the operators appeared, hoping that the captain would think better of it.
“Seize this young gentleman up to the breach of the gun, quarter-master!”
“Will you oblige me, sir, by letting me know my offence!”
“No, sir.”
“I do not belong to your ship,” continued Jerry. “If I have done wrong, Captain M — is well known to be a strict officer, and will pay every attention to your complaint.”
“I will save him the trouble, sir.”
Jerry was now seized up, and every arrangement made preparatory to punishment. “Well, sir,” resumed Jerry, “it must be as you please; but I know what Captain M — will say.”
“What, sir?”
“That you were angry with your officers, whom you could not punish, and revenged yourself upon a poor boy.”
“Would he? — Boatswain’s mate, where’s your cat?”
“Here, sir; — how many tails am I to use?”
“Oh, give him the whole nine.”
“Why, your honour,” replied the man, in a compassionate tone, “there’s hardly room for them there.”
Jerry, who, when his indignation was roused, cared little what he said, and defied consequences, now addressed the captain.
“Captain Bradshaw, before you commence, will you allow me to tell you what I will call you after the first lash?”
“What, sir?”
“What!” cried Jerry, with scorn, — “Why, if you cut me to pieces, and turn me out of the service afterwards, I will call you a paltry coward, and your own conscience, when you are able to reflect, will tell you the same.”
Captain Bradshaw started back with astonishment at such unheard-of language from a midshipman; but he was pleased with the undaunted spirit of the boy — perhaps he felt the truth of the observation. At all events, it saved Jerry. After a short pause, the captain said —
“Cast him loose; but observe, sir, never let me see your face again while you are in the ship!”
“No, nor any other part of me, if I can help it,” replied Jerry, buttoning up his clothes, and making a precipitate escape by the cabin-door.
Chapter Thirty Five.
The air no more was vital now,
But did a mortal poison grow.
The lungs, which used to fan the heart,
Served only now to fire each part;
What should refresh, increased the smart.
And now their very breath,
The chiefest sign of life, became the cause of death!
Sprat, Bishop of Rochester.
The Aspasia did not drop her anchor in Carlisle Bay until three weeks after the arrival of the frigate which brought up Courtenay and the prize crew; but she had not been idle, having three valuable prizes, which she had captured in company. Courtenay immediately repaired on board of his ship, to report to Captain M — the circumstances which had occurred connected with the loss of his five men. He was too honourable to attempt to disguise or palliate the facts: on the contrary, he laid all the blame upon himself; and enhanced the merits of the two midshipmen. Captain M — , who admired his ingenuous confession, contented himself with observing that he trusted it would be a caution to him during his future career in the service. To Seymour and Jerry he said nothing, as he was afraid that the latter would presume upon commendation; but he treasured up their conduct in his memory, and determined to lose no opportunity that might offer to reward them. Courtenay descended to the gun-room, where he was warmly greeted by his messmates, who crowded round him to listen to his detail of the attempt to recapture.
“Well,” observed Price, “it appears we have had a narrow chance of losing a messmate.”
“Narrow chance lose two, sar,” replied Billy Pitts; “you forgit, sar, I on board schooner!”
“Oh, Billy, are you there? How does the dictionary come on?”
“Come on well, sar; I make a corundum on Massa Doctor, when on board schooner.”
“Made a what? — a corundum! What can that be?”
“It ought to be something devilish hard,” observed Courtenay.
“Yes, sar, debblish hard find out. Now, sar, — Why Massa Macallan like a general?”
“I’m sure I can’t tell. We give it up, Billy.”
“Then, sar, I tell you. Because he ’feelossifer.”
“Bravo, Billy! — Why, you’ll write a book soon. By the bye, Macallan, I must not forget to thank you for the loan of that gentleman: he has made himself very useful, and behaved very well.”
“Really, Massa Courtenay, I tought I not give you satisfaction.”
“Why so, Billy?”
“Because, sar, you never give me present — not one dollar.”
“He has you there,” said Price; “you must fork out.”
“Not a rap — the nigger had perquisites. I saw the English merchants give him a handful of dollars, before they left the vessel.”
“Ah! they real gentlemen, Massa Capon and Massa — dam um name — I forgot.”
“And what am I, then, you black thief?”
“Oh! you, sar, you very fine officer,” replied Billy, quitting the gun-room.
Courtenay did not exactly like the answer — but there was nothing to lay hold of. As usual, when displeased, he referred to his snuff-box, muttering something, in which the word “annoying” could only be distinguished.
The breeze from the windsail blew some of the snuff out of the box into the eyes of Macallan.
“I wish to Heaven you would be more careful, Courtenay,” cried the surgeon, in an angry tone, and stamping with the pain.
“I really beg your pardon,” replied Courtenay, “snuffing’s a vile habit, — I wish I could leave it off.”
“So do your messmates,” replied the surgeon: “I cannot imagine what pleasure there can be in a practice in itself so nasty, independent of the destruction of the olfactory powers.”
“It’s exactly for that reason that I take snuff; I am convinced that I am a gainer by the loss of the power of smell.”
“I consider it ungrateful, if not wicked, to say so,” replied the surgeon, gravely. “The senses were given to us as a source of enjoyment.”
“True, doctor,” answered Courtenay, mimicking the language of Macallan; “and if I were a savage in the woods, there could not be a sense more valuable, or affording so much gratification, as the one in question. I should rise with the sun, and inhale the fragrance of the shrubs and flowers, offered up in grateful incense to their Creator, and I should stretch myself under the branches of the forest tree, as evening closed, and enjoy the faint perfume with which they wooed the descending moisture after exhaustion from the solar heat. But in civilised society, where men and things are packed too closely together, the case is widely different: for one pleasant, you encounter twenty offensive smells; and of all the localities for villainous compounds, a ship is indubitably the worst. I therefore patronise ‘’baccy,’ which, I presume, was intended for our use, or it would not have been created.”
“But not for our abuse.”
“Ah! there’s the rock that we all split upon — and I, with others, must plead guilty. The greatest difficulty in this world is, to know when and where to stop. Even a philosopher like yourself cannot do it. You allow your hypothesis to whirl in your brain, until it forms a vortex which swallows up everything that comes within its influence. A modern philosopher, with his hypothesis, is like a man possessed with a devil in times of yore; and it is not to be cast out by any human means, that I know of.”
“As you please,” replied Macallan, laughing; “I only deprecated a bad habit.”
“An hypothesis is only a habit, — a habit of looking through a glass of one peculiar colour, which imparts its hue to all around it. We are but creatures of habit. Luxury is nothing more than contracting fresh habits, and having the means of administering to them — ergo, doctor, the more habits you have to gratify, the more luxuries you possess. You luxuriate in the contemplation of nature — Price in quoting, or trying to quote, Shakespeare — Billy Pitts in his dictionary — I in my snuff-box; and surely we may all continue to enjoy our harmless propensities, without interfering with each other: although I must say, that those still-born quotations of our messmate Price are most tryingly annoying.”
“And so is a pinch of snuff in the eye, I can assure you,” replied Macallan.
“Granted; but we must ‘give and take,’ doctor.”
“In the present case, I don’t care how much you take, provided you don’t give,” rejoined Macallan, recovering his good humour.
A messenger from Captain M — , who desired to speak with Macallan, put an end to the conversation.
“Mr Macallan,” said Captain M — , when the surgeon came into the cabin to receive his commands, “I am sorry to find, from letters which I have received, that the yellow fever is raging in the other islands in a most alarming manner, and that it has been communicated to the squadron on the station. I am sorry to add, that I have received a letter from the governor here, informing me that it has made its appearance at the barracks. I am afraid that we have little chance of escaping so general a visitation. As it is impossible to put to sea, even if my orders were not decisive to the contrary, are there not some precautions which ought to be taken?”
“Certainly, sir. It will be prudent to fumigate the lower deck; it has already been so well ventilated and whitewashed, that nothing else can be done; we must hope for the best.”
“I do so,” replied Captain M — ; “but my hope is mingled with anxious apprehensions, which I cannot control. We must do all we can, and leave the rest to Providence.”
The fears of Captain M — were but too well grounded. For some days, no symptoms of infection appeared on board of the Aspasia; but the ravages on shore, among the troops, were to such an extent, that the hospitals were filled, and those who were carried in might truly be said to have left hope behind. Rapid as was the mortality, it was still not rapid enough for the admittance of those who were attacked with the fatal disease; and as the bodies of fifteen or twenty were, each succeeding evening, borne unto the grave, the continual decrease of the military cortège which attended the last obsequies, told the sad tale, that those who, but a day or two before, had followed the corpses of others, were now carried on their own biers.
Other vessels on the station, which had put to sea from the different isles, with the disappointed expectation of avoiding the contagion, now came to an anchor in the bay, their crews so weakened by disease and death that they could with difficulty send up sufficient men to furl their sails. Boat after boat was sent on shore to the naval hospital, loaded with sufferers, until it became so crowded that no more could be received. Still the Aspasia, from the precautions which had been taken, in fumigating, and avoiding all unnecessary contact with the shipping and the shore, had for nearly a fortnight escaped the infection; but the miasma was at last wafted to the frigate, and in the course of one night fifteen men, who were in health the preceding evening, before eight o’clock on the following morning were lying in their hammocks under the half-deck. Before the close of that day, the number of patients had increased to upwards of forty. The hospitals were so crowded that Captain M — agreed with Macallan that it would be better that the men should remain on board.
The frigate was anchored with springs on her cable, so as always to be able to warp her stern to the breeze; the cabin bulk-heads on the main-deck, and the thwart-ship bulk-heads below, were removed, and the stern windows and ports thrown open, to admit a freer circulation of air than could have been obtained by riding with her head to the sullen breeze, which hardly deigned to fan the scorching cheeks of the numerous and exhausted patients. The numbers on the list daily increased, until every part of the ship was occupied with their hammocks, and the surgeon and his assistants had scarcely time to relieve one by excessive bleeding, and consign him to his hammock, before another, staggering and fainting under the rapid disease, presented himself, with his arm bared, ready for the lancet. More blood was thrown into the stagnant water of the bay than would have sufficed to render ever verdant the laurels of many a well-fought action (for our laurels flourish not from the dew of Heaven, but must be watered with a sanguine stream) and, alas! too soon, more bodies were consigned to the deep than would have been demanded from the frigate in the warmest proof of courage and perseverance in her country’s cause.
It is a scene like this which appals the sailor’s heart. It is not the range of hammocks on the main-deck, tenanted by pale forms, with their bandages steeped in gore; for such is the chance of war, and the blood has flowed from hearts boiling with ardour and devotion. If not past cure, the smiles and congratulations of their shipmates alleviate the anguish and fever of the wound: if past all medical relief; still the passage from this transitory world is soothed by the affectionate sympathy of their messmates, by the promise to execute their last wishes, by the knowledge that it was in their country’s defence they nobly fell. ’Tis not the chance of wreck, or of being consigned, unshrouded, to the dark wave, by the treacherous leak, or overwhelming fury of the storm. ’Tis not the “thought-executing fire.” Every and all of these they are prepared and are resigned to meet, as ills to which their devious track is heir. But when disease, in its most loathsome form and implacable nature, makes its appearance — when we contemplate, in perspective, our own fate in the unfortunate who is selected, like the struggling sheep, dragged from the hurdled crowd, to be pierced by the knife of the butcher — when the horror of infection becomes so strong that we hold aloof from administering the kind offices of relief to our dearest friends; and, eventually prostrated ourselves, find the same regard for self pervades the rest, and that there is no voluntary attendance — then the sight of the expiring wretch, in his last effort, turning his head over the side of his hammock, and throwing off the dreadful black vomit, harbinger of his doom — ’tis horrible! too horrible!