Elena's eyes were level and cool as she said: "If I had known who you were I would have received you myself. You must not think me rude. Mr. Desboro's unnecessary reticence concerning you is to blame; not I."
Jacqueline's smile became mechanical: "Mr. Desboro's reticence concerning a business acquaintance was very natural. A busy woman neither expects nor even thinks about social amenities under business circumstances."
Elena's flush deepened: "Business is kinder to men than women sometimes believe – if it permits acquaintance with such delightful people as yourself."
Jacqueline said calmly: "All business has its compensations," – she smiled and made a friendly little salute with her head to Clydesdale and Desboro, – "as you will witness for me. And I am employed by other clients who also are considerate and kind. So you see the woman who works has scarcely any time to suffer from social isolation."
Daisy said lightly: "Nobody who is happily employed worries over social matters. Intelligence and sweet temper bring more friends than a busy girl knows what to do with. Isn't that so, Miss Nevers?"
Jacqueline turned to Elena with a little laugh: "It's an axiom that nobody can have too many friends. I want all I can have, Mrs. Clydesdale, and am most grateful when people like me."
"And when they don't," asked Elena, smiling, "what do you do then, Miss Nevers?"
"What is there to do, Mrs. Clydesdale?" she said gaily. "What would you do about it?"
But Elena seemed not to have heard her, for she was already turning to Desboro, flushed, almost feverish in her animation:
"So many things have happened since I saw you, Jim – " she hesitated, then added daringly, "at the opera. Do you remember Ariane?"
"I think you were in the Barkley's box," he said coolly.
"Your memory is marvellous! In point of fact, I was there. And since then so many, many things have happened that I'd like to compare notes with you – sometime."
"I'm quite ready now," he said.
"Do you think your daily record fit for public scrutiny, Jim?" she laughed.
"I don't mind sharing it with anybody here," he retorted gaily, "if you have no objection."
His voice and hers, and their laughter seemed so perfectly frank that thrust and parry passed as without significance. She and Desboro were still lightly rallying each other; Clydesdale was explaining to Daisy that lapis lazuli was the sapphire of the ancients, while Jacqueline was showing her a bit under a magnifying glass, when the noise of sleighs and motors outside signalled the return of the skating party.
As Desboro passed her, Elena said under her breath: "I want a moment alone with you this evening."
"It's impossible," he motioned with his lips; and passed on with a smile of welcome for his returning guests.
Later, in the billiard room, where they all had gathered before the impromptu dance which usually terminated the evening, Elena found another chance for a word aside: "Jim, I must speak to you alone, please."
"It can't be done. You see that for yourself, don't you?"
"It can be done. Go to your room and I'll come – "
"Are you mad?"
"Almost. I tell you you'd better find some way – "
"What has happened?"
"I mean to have you tell me, Jim."
A dull flush came into his face: "Oh! Well, I'll tell you now, if you like."
Her heart seemed to stop for a second, then almost suffocated her, and she instinctively put her hand to her throat.
He was leaning over the pool table, idly spinning the ivory balls; she, seated on the edge, one pretty, bare arm propping her body, appeared to be watching him as idly. All around them rang the laughter and animated chatter of his guests, sipping their after-dinner coffee and cordial around the huge fireplace.
"Don't say – that you are going to – Jim – " she breathed. "It isn't true – it mustn't be – "
He interrupted deliberately: "What are you trying to do to me? Make a servant out of me? Chain me up while you pass your life deciding at leisure whether to live with your husband or involve yourself and me in scandal?"
"Are you in love with that girl – after what you have promised me?"
"Are you sane or crazy?"
"You once told me you would never marry. I have rested secure in the knowledge that when the inevitable crash came you would be free to stand by me!"
"You have a perfectly good husband. You and he are on better terms – you are getting on all right together. Do you expect to keep me tied to the table-leg in case of eventualities?" he said, in a savage whisper. "How many men do you wish to control?"
"One! I thought a Desboro never lied."
"Have I lied to you?"
"If you marry Miss Nevers you will have lied to me, Jim."
"Very well. Then you'll release me from that fool of a promise. I remember I did say that I would never marry. I've changed my mind, that's all. I've changed otherwise, too – please God! The cad you knew as James Desboro is not exactly what you're looking at now. It's in me to be something remotely resembling a man. I learned how to try from her, if you want to know. What I was can't be helped. What I'm to make of the débris of what I am concerns myself. If you ever had a shred of real liking for me you'll show it now."
"Jim! Is this how you betray me – after persuading me to continue a shameful and ghastly farce with Cary Clydesdale! You have betrayed me – for your own ends! You have made my life a living lie again – so that you could evade responsibility – "
"Was I ever responsible for you?"
"You asked me to marry you – "
"Before you married Cary. Good God! Does that entail hard labour for life?"
"You promised not to marry – "
"What is it to you what I do – if you treat your husband decently?"
"I have tried – " She crimsoned. "I – I endured degradation to which I will never again submit – whatever the law may be – whatever marriage is supposed to include! Do you think you can force me to – to that – for your own selfish ends – with your silly and unsolicited advice on domesticity and – and children – when my heart is elsewhere – when you have it, and you know you possess it – and all that I am – every bit of me. Jim! Don't be cruel to me who have been trying to live as you wished, merely to satisfy a moral notion of your own! Don't betray me now – at such a time – when it's a matter of days, hours, before I tell Cary that the farce is ended. Are you going to leave me to face things alone? You can't! I won't let you! I am – "
"Be careful," he said, spinning the 13 ball into a pocket. "People are watching us. Toss that cue-ball back to me, please. Laugh a little when you do it."
For a second she balanced the white ivory ball in a hand which matched it; then the mad impulse to dash it into his smiling face passed with a shudder, and she laughed and sent it caroming swiftly from cushion to cushion, until it darted into his hand.
"Jim," she said, "you are not really serious. I know it, too; and because I do know it, I have been able to endure the things you have done – your idle fancies for a pretty face and figure – your indiscretions, ephemeral courtships, passing inclinations. But this is different – "
"Yes, it is different," he said. "And so am I, Elena. Let us be about the honest business of life, in God's name, and clear our hearts and souls of the morbid and unwholesome mess that lately entangled us."
"Is that how you speak of what we have been to each other?" she asked, very pale.
He was silent.
"Jim, dear," she said timidly, "won't you give me ten minutes alone with you?"
He scarcely heard her. He spun the last parti-coloured ball into a corner pocket, straightened his shoulders, and looked at Jacqueline where she sat in the corner of the fireplace. Herrendene, cross-legged on the rug at her feet, was doing Malay card tricks to amuse her; but from moment to moment her blue eyes stole across the room toward Desboro and Mrs. Clydesdale where they leaned together over the distant pool table. Suddenly she caught his eye and smiled a pale response to the message in his gaze.
After a moment he said quietly to Elena: "I am deeply and reverently in love – for the first and only time in my life. It is proper that you should know it. And now you do know it. There is absolutely nothing further to be said between us."
"There is – more than you think," she whispered, white to the lips.
CHAPTER XI
Nobody, apparently, was yet astir; not a breakfast tray had yet tinkled along the dusky corridors when Desboro, descending the stairs in the dim morning light, encountered Jacqueline coming from the general direction of the east wing, her arms loaded with freshly cut white carnations.
"Good morning," he whispered, in smiling surprise, taking her and her carnations into his arms very reverently, almost timidly.
She endured the contact shyly and seriously, as usual, bending her head aside to avoid his lips.
"Do you suppose," he said laughingly, "that you could ever bring yourself to kiss me, Jacqueline?"
She did not answer, and presently he released her, saying: "You never have yet; and now that we're engaged – "
"Engaged!"
"You know we are!"
"Is that what you think, Jim?"
"Certainly! I asked you to marry me – "
"No, dear, I asked you. But I wasn't certain you had quite accepted me – "
"Are you laughing at me?"
"I don't know – I don't know what I am doing any more; laughter and tears seem so close to each other – sometimes – and I can never be certain which it is going to be any more."
Her eyes remained grave, but her lips were sweet and humourous as she stood there on the stairs, her chin resting on the sheaf of carnations clasped to her breast.
"What is troubling you, Jacqueline?" he asked, after a moment's silence.
"Nothing. If you will hold these flowers a moment I'll decorate you."
He took the fragrant sheaf from her; she selected a magnificent white blossom, drew the stem through the lapel of his coat, patted the flower into a position which suited her, regarded the effect critically, then glanced up out of her winning blue eyes and found him watching her dreamily.
"I try to realise it, and I can't," he said vaguely. "Can you, dear?"
"Realise what?" she asked, in a low voice.
"That we are engaged."
"Are you so sure of me, Jim?"
"Do you suppose I could live life through without you now?"
"I don't know. Try it for two minutes anyway; these flowers must stand in water. Will you wait here for me?"
He stepped forward to aid her, but she passed him lightly, avoiding his touch, and sped across the corridor. In a few minutes she returned and they descended the stairs together, and entered the empty library. She leaned back against the table, both slender hands resting on the edge behind her, and gazed out at the sparrows in the snow. And she did not even appear to notice his arm, which ventured around her waist, or his lips resting against the lock of bright hair curling on her cheek, so absorbed she seemed to be in her silent reflections.
After a few moments she said, still looking out of the window: "I must tell you something now."
"Are you going to tell me that you love me?"
"Yes – perhaps I had better begin that way."
"Then begin, dearest."
"I – I love you."
His arm tightened around her, but she gently released herself.
"There is a – a little more to say, Jim. I love you enough to give you back your promise."
"My promise!"
"To marry me," she said steadily. "I scarcely knew what I was saying yesterday – I was so excited, so much in love with you – so fearful that you might sometime be unhappy if things continued with us as they threatened to continue. I'm afraid I overvalued myself – made you suspect that I am more than I really am – or can ever be. Besides, I frightened you – and myself – unnecessarily. I never could be in any danger of – of loving you – unwisely. It was not perfectly fair to you to hint such a thing – because, after all, there is a third choice for you. A worthy one. For you could let me go my way out of your life, which is already so full, and which would fill again very easily, even if my absence left a little void for a while. And if it was any kind of pity you felt for me – for what I said to you – that stirred you to – ask of me what I begged you to ask – then I give you back your promise. I have not slept for thinking over it. I must give it back."
He remained silent for a while, then his arms slipped down around her body and he dropped on one knee beside her and laid his face close against her. She had to bend over to hear what he was saying, he spoke so low and with such difficulty.
"How can you care for me?" he said. "How can you? Don't you understand what a beast I was – what lesser impulse possessed me – "
"Hush, Jim! Am I different?"
"Good God! Yes!"
"No, dear."
"You don't know what you're saying!"
"You don't know. Do you suppose I am immune to – to the – lesser love – at moments – "
He lifted his head and looked up at her, dismayed.
"You!"
"I. How else could I understand you?"
"Because you are so far above everything unworthy."
"No, dear. If I were, you would only have angered and frightened me – not made me sorry for us both. Because women and men are something alike at moments; only, somehow, women seem to realise that – somehow – they are guardians of – of something – of civilisation, perhaps. And it is their instinct to curb and silence and ignore whatever unworthy threatens it or them. It is that way with us, Jim."
She looked out of the window at the sky and the trees, and stood thinking for a while. Then: "Did you suppose it is always easy for a girl in love – whose instinct is to love – and to give? Especially such a girl as I am, especially when she is so dreadfully afraid that her lover may think her cold-blooded – self-seeking – perhaps a – a schemer – "
She covered her face with her hand – the quick, adorable gesture he knew so well.
"I —did ask you to marry me," she said, in a stifled voice, "but I am not a schemer; my motive was not self-interest. It was for you I asked it, Jim, far more than for myself – or I never could have found the courage – perhaps not even the wish. Because, somehow, I am too proud to wish for anything that is not offered."
As he said nothing, she broke out suddenly with a little sob of protest in her voice: "I am not a self-seeking, calculating woman! I am not naturally cold and unresponsive! I am – inclined to be – otherwise. And you had better know it. But you won't believe it, I am afraid, because I – I have never responded to – to you."
Tears fell between her fingers over the flushed cheeks. She spoke with increasing effort: "You don't understand; and I can't explain – except to say that to be demonstrative seemed unworthy in me."
He put his arms around her shoulders very gently; she rested her forehead against his shoulder.
"Don't think me calculating and cold-blooded – or a fool," she whispered. "Probably everybody kisses or is kissed. I know it as well as you do. But I haven't the – effrontery – to permit myself – such emotions. I couldn't, Jim. I'd hate myself. And I thought of that, too, when I asked you to marry me. Because if you had refused – and – matters had gone on – you would have been sorry for me sooner or later – or perhaps hated me. Because I would have been – been too much ashamed of myself to have – loved you – unwisely."
He stood with head bent, listening; and, as he listened, the comparison between this young girl and himself forced itself into his unwilling mind – how that all she believed and desired ennobled her, and how what had always governed him had made of him nothing more admirable than what he was born, a human animal. For what he began as he still was – only cleverer.
What else was he – except a trained animal, sufficiently educated to keep out of jail? What had he done with his inheritance? His body was sane and healthy; he had been at pains to cultivate that. How was it with his mind? How was it with his spiritual beliefs? Had he cultivated and added to either? He had been endowed with a brain. Had he made of it anything except an instrument for idle caprice and indolent passions to play upon?
"Do you understand me now?" she whispered, touching wet lashes with her handkerchief.
He replied impetuously, hotly; her hands dropped from her face and she looked up at him with sweet, confused eyes, blushing vividly under his praise of her.
He spoke of himself, too, with all the quick, impassioned impulse of youthful emotion, not sparing himself, promising better things, vowing them before the shrine of her innocence. Yet, a stronger character might have registered such vows in silence. And his fervour and incoherence left her mute; and after he had ceased to protest too much she stood quiet for a while, striving to search herself so that nothing unworthy should remain – so that heart and soul should be clean under the magic veil of happiness descending before her enraptured eyes.
Gently his arms encircled her; her clasped hands rested on his shoulder, and she gazed out at the blue sky and sun-warmed snow as at a corner of paradise revealed.
Later, when the household was astir, she went out with him into the greenhouse, where the enchanted stillness of growing things thrilled her, and the fragrance and sunlight made the mystery of love and its miracle even more exquisitely unreal to her.
At first they did not speak; her hand lay loosely in his, her blue eyes remained remote; and together they slowly paced the long, glass-sheeted galleries between misty, scented mounds of bloom, to and fro, under the flood of pallid winter sunshine, pale as the yellow jasmine flowers overhead.
After a while a fat gardener came into one of the further wings. Presently the sound of shovelled coal from the furnace-pit aroused them from their dream; and they looked at each other gravely.
After a moment, he said: "Does it make a difference to you, Jacqueline, what I was before I knew you?"
"No."
"I was only wondering what you really think of me."
"You know already, Jim."
He shook his head slowly.
"Jim! Of course you know!" she insisted hotly. "What you may have been before I knew you I refuse to consider. Anyway, it was you– part of you – and belongs to me now! Because I choose to make it mine – all that you were and are – good and evil! For I won't give up one atom of you – even to the devil himself!"
He tried to laugh: "What a fierce little partisan you are," he said.
"Very – where it concerns you," she said, unsmiling.
"Dear – I had better tell you now; you may hear things about me – "
"I won't listen to them!"
"No; but one sometimes hears without listening. People may say things. They will say things. I wish I could spare you. If I had known – if I had only known – that you were in the world – "
"Don't, Jim! It – it isn't best for me to hear. It doesn't concern me," she insisted excitedly. "And if anybody dares say one word to me – "
"Wait, dear. All I want to be sure of is that you do love me enough to – to go on loving me. I want to be certain, and I want you to be certain before you are a bride – "
She was growing very much excited, and suddenly near to tears, for the one thing that endangered her self-control seemed to be his doubt of her.
"There is nothing that I haven't forgiven you," she said. "Nothing! There is nothing I won't forgive – except – one thing – "
"What?"
"I can't say it. I can't even think it. All I know is that now I couldn't forgive it." Suddenly she became perfectly quiet.
"I know what you mean," he said.
"Yes. It is what no wife can forgive." She looked at him, clear eyed, intelligent, calm; for the moment without any illusion; and he seemed to feel that, in the light of what she knew of him, she was coolly weighing the danger of the experiment. Never had he seen so cold and lustrous a brow, such limpid clarity of eye, searching, fearless, direct. Then, in an instant, it all seemed to melt into flushed and winsome loveliness; and she was murmuring that she loved him, and asking pardon for even one second's hesitation.
"It never could be; it is unthinkable," she whispered. "And it is too late anyway for me – I would love you now, whatever you killed in me. Because I must go on loving you, Jim; for that is the way it is with me, and I know it now. As long as there is life in me I'll strive for you in my own fashion – even against yourself – to keep you for mine, to please you, to be to you and to the world what you wish me to be – for your honour and your happiness – which also must be my own – the only happiness, now, that I can ever understand."
He held her in his arms, smoothing the bright hair, touching the white brow with his lips at moments, happy because he was so deeply in love, fearful because of it – and, deep in his soul, miserable, afraid lest aught out of his past life return again to mock her – lest some echo of folly offend her ears – some shadow fall – some phantom of dead days rise from their future hearth to stand between them.
It is that way with a man who has lived idly and irresponsibly, and who has gone lightly about the pleasure of life and not its business. For sometimes there arrives an hour of unbidden clairvoyance – not necessarily a spiritual awakening – but a moment of balanced intelligence and sanity and clear vision. And when it arrives, the road to yesterday suddenly becomes visible for its entire length; and when a man looks back he sees it stretching away behind him, peopled with every shape that has ever traversed it, and every spectre that ever has haunted it.
Sorrow for what need not have been, regret and shame for what had been – and the bitterness of the folly – the knowledge, too late, of what he could have been to the girl he held now in his arms – how he could have met her on more equal terms had he saved his youth and strength and innocence and pride for her alone – how he could have given it unsullied into her keeping. All this Desboro was beginning to realise now. And many men have realised it when the tardy understanding came too late. For what has been is still and will be always; and shall appear here or hereafter, or after that – somewhere, sometime, inevitably, inexorably. There is no such thing as expunging what has been, or of erasing what is to be. All records stand; hope lies only in lengthening the endless chapters – chapters which will not be finished when the sun dies, and the moon fails, and the stars go out forever.
Walking slowly back together, they passed Herrendene in the wing hall, and his fine and somewhat melancholy face lighted up at the encounter.
"I'm so sorry you are going to-day," said Jacqueline, with all her impulsive and sweet sincerity. "Everybody will miss you and wish you here again."
"To be regretted is one of the few real pleasures in life," he said, smiling. His quick eye had rested on Desboro and then reverted to her, and his intuition was warning him with all the brutality and finality of reason that his last hope of her must end.
Desboro said: "I hate to have you go, Herrendene, but I suppose you must."
"Must you?" echoed Jacqueline, wistful for the moment. But the irresistible radiance of happiness had subtly transfigured her, and Herrendene looked into her eyes and saw the new-born beauty in them, shyly apparent.
"Yes," he said, "I must be about the business of life – the business of life, Miss Nevers. Everybody is engaged in it; it has many names, but it's all the same business. You, for example, pass judgment on beautiful things; Desboro, here, is a farmer, and I play soldier with sword and drum. But it's all the same business – the business of life; and one can work at it or idle through it, but never escape it, because, at the last, every soul in the world must die in harness. And the idlest are the heaviest laden." He laughed. "That's quite a sermon, isn't it, Miss Nevers? And shall I make my adieux now? Were you going anywhere? You see I am leaving Silverwood directly after breakfast – "
"As though Mr. Desboro and I would go off anywhere and not say good-bye to you!" she exclaimed indignantly, quite unconscious of being too obvious.
So they all three returned to the breakfast room together, where Clydesdale, who had come over from the Hammertons' for breakfast, was already tramping hungrily around the covered dishes on the sideboard, hot plate in hand, evidently meditating a wholesale assault. He grinned affably as Jacqueline and Desboro came in, and they all helped themselves from the warmers, returning laden to the table with whatever suited their fancy. Other guests, to whom no trays had been sent, arrived one after another to prowl around the browse and join in the conversation if they chose, or sulk, as is the fashion with some perfectly worthy souls at breakfast-tide.
"This thaw settles the skating for good and all," remarked Reggie Ledyard. "Will you go fishing with me, Miss Nevers? It's our last day, you know."
Cairns growled over his grape-fruit: "You can't make dates with Miss Nevers at the breakfast table. It isn't done. I was going to ask her to do something with me, anyway."
"I hate breakfast," said Van Alstyne. "When I see it I always wish I were dead or that everybody else was. Zooks! This cocktail helps some! Try one, Miss Nevers."
"There's reason in your grouch," remarked Bertie Barkley, with his hard-eyed smile, "considering what Aunt Hannah and I did to you and Helsa at auction last night."
"Aunt Hannah will live in luxury for a year on it," added Cairns maliciously. "Doesn't it make you happy, Stuyve?"
"Oh – blub!" muttered Van Alstyne, hating everybody and himself – and most of all hating to think of his losses and of the lady who caused them. Only the really rich know how card losses rankle.
Cairns glanced banteringly across at Jacqueline. It was his form of wit to quiz her because she neither indulged in cocktails nor cigarettes, nor played cards for stakes. He lifted his eyebrows and tapped the frosted shaker beside him significantly.
"I've a new kind of mountain dew, warranted to wake the dead, Miss Nevers. I call it the 'Aunt Hannah,' in her honour – honour to whom honour is dew," he added impudently. "Won't you let me make you a cocktail?"
"Wait until Aunt Hannah hears how you have honoured her and tempted me," laughed Jacqueline.
"I never tempted maid or wife
Or suffragette in all my life – "
sang Ledyard, beating time on Van Alstyne, who silently scowled his displeasure.
Presently Ledyard selected a grape-fruit, with a sour smile at one of Desboro's cats which had confidently leaped into his lap.
"Is this a zoo den in the Bronx, or a breakfast room, Desboro? I only ask because I'm all over cats."
Bertie Barkley snapped his napkin at an intrusive yellow pup who was sniffing and wagging at his elbow.
Jacqueline comforted the retreating animal, bending over and crooning in his floppy ear:
"They gotta stop kickin' my dawg aroun'."
"What do you care what they do to Jim's live stock, Miss Nevers?" demanded Ledyard suspiciously.
She laughed, but to her annoyance a warmer colour brightened her cheeks.
"Heaven help us!" exclaimed Reggie. "Miss Nevers is blushing at the breakfast table. Gentlemen, are we done for without even suspecting it? And by that – that" – pointing a furious finger at Desboro – "that!"
"Certainly," said Desboro, smiling. "Did you imagine I'd ever let Miss Nevers escape from Silverwood?"
Ledyard heaved a sigh of relief: "Gad," he muttered, "I suspected you both for a moment. Anyway, it doesn't matter. Every man here would have murdered you in turn. Come on, Miss Nevers; you've made a big splash with me, and I'll play you a game of rabbit – or anything on earth, if you'll let me run along beside you."
"No, I'm driving with Captain Herrendene to the station," she said; and that melancholy soldier looked up in grateful surprise.
And she did go with him; and everybody came out on the front steps to wish him bon voyage.
"Are you coming back, Miss Nevers?" asked Ledyard, in pretended alarm.
"I don't know. Is Manila worth seeing, Captain Herrendene?" she asked, laughingly.
"If you sail for Manila with that tin soldier I'll go after you in a hydroplane!" called Reggie after them, as the car rolled away. He added frankly, for everybody's benefit: "I hate any man who even looks at her, and I don't care who knows it. But what's the use? Going to night-school might help me, but I doubt it. No; she's for a better line of goods than the samples at Silverwood. She shines too far above us. Mark that, James Desboro! And take what comfort you can in your reflected glory. For had she not been the spotlight, you'd look exactly like the rest of us. And that isn't flattering anybody, I'm thinking."
It was to be the last day of the party. Everybody was leaving directly after luncheon, and now everybody seemed inclined to do nothing in particular. Mrs. Clydesdale came over from the Hammerton's. The air was soft and springlike; the snow in the fields was melting and full of golden pools. People seemed to be inclined to stroll about outdoors without their hats; a lively snowball battle began between Cary Clydesdale on one side and Cairns and Reggie Ledyard on the other – and gradually was participated in by everybody except Aunt Hannah, who grimly watched it from the library window. But her weather eye never left Mrs. Clydesdale.
She was still standing at the window when somebody entered the library behind her, and somebody else followed. She knew who they were; the curtains screened her. For one second the temptation to listen beset her, but she put it away with a sniff, and had already turned to disclose herself when she heard Mrs. Clydesdale say something that stiffened her into a rigid silence.
What followed stiffened her still more – and there were only a few words, too – only:
"For God's sake, what are you thinking of?" from Desboro; and from Elena Clydesdale:
"This has got to end – I can't stand it, Jim – "
"Stand what?"
"Him! And what you are doing!"
"Be careful! Do you want people to overhear us?" he said, in a low voice of concentrated anger.
"Then where – "
"I don't know. Wait until these people leave – "