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AUTHOR

Renke Liebig (German 1986). He has written for some years a diary to write down his personal story. Thus many short articles were created, which he presents in his first book TATA‘S DISCOVERIES. He speaks German, English, and Spanish. He has used his language skills to write the book in these three languages. He studied in Germany, in the Netherlands, and in Chile. Formally he was enrolled in the faculty of business studies, but life had other plans. A deep aspiration for something different kept him from his studies, but not from writing. He loves to hike. He has made three long journeys on the Camino de Santiago in Spain (Camino Francés, Via de la Plata, Camino del Norte). From there comes his maxim for life, which he wishes for everyone with enthusiasm: ¡Buen Camino!

PROLOG

It was a hot day in summer. I have finally made the way. The Camino de Santiago in Spain. I walked many kilometres by foot. I have listened to a pilgrim´s mass for the completion of the way. There it was said, that the way is not over here at all. The way begins really now. I heard the words, but I did not understand them. Only later the topics were clearer to me. I always wanted to write a book. But I did not know about what. So I decided simply to write every day a little bit. At first I was writing a Blog on the internet. It was exciting to see, how more and more articles were created. I did not want just to blog. Now I wanted to write a book. So I have put the articles, which I have written, into a story. The book is called TATA‘S DISCOVERIES. It is about Tata, who is at first a doctor and supports humans. Then he becomes a patient himself and humans support him. At the end Tata is neither doctor nor patient anymore, but simply a human being, who experiences life.

INTRODUCTION

Tata is dreaming a little bit. He rest in his self. It is still. Thoughts are forming itself into words. He laughs. A laughing which is not from this world. The cosmic laughing. It pulls him into a peculiar moment, the quantum moment. It is still again. A timeless thought strives into his perception. Questions appear. Who am I? What is time? What is ego? These questions blow the rational mind of Tata. He awakes from his dream.

I am asking myself: Am I crazy? Am I enlightened? Am I crazy and enlightened? I move into the beingjoy, into the lifejoy. I cope with an identity crisis. I am going through diseases en masse. I arrive at the Tata-Realization of Being, Thinking, and Doing.

A pilgrim appears barefoot before my inner eye. The first chapter shows humans, which I have met during my journey in Spain. Words are forming itself in my thoughts to an attitude:

Give, what you have. Thus you receive, what you need.

1. HIKING

May I present myself briefly? I am Tata, the boss of the university of universe. My special field is the experience of consciousness. Many humans appear in this field in my perception. Thus I created a space, where I get in contact with them. If necessary, I give advices to the humans. They are looking for support, however often I don‘t give them, what they are wishing for initially. I give them, what they need from my point of view. Articles are created with each human and visitor, which are written for them and with them.

A tall woman enters the room with a big backpack on her back. She presents herself as pilgrim. She has many questions about the ways of this world. She wants to know more about the insights, which I have collected on my journeys.

I remain silent for a long time. Afterwards I hand over an article with the name CAMINO DE SANTIAGO. It is a summary about the adventure and key moments, which I have experienced on the ways.

Here is the article CAMINO DE SANTIAGO.

1.1 CAMINO DE SANTIAGO

TATA

I am interested today about the current development of the numbers of pilgrims on the Camino de Santiago in Spain. Pilgrims are humans, who travel the last 100 km by foot or the last 200 km by bicycle towards Santiago de Compostela.

The Camino de Santiago is popular. But why is that so? I was walking the Camino de Santiago by myself, the Camino Francés and the Via de la Plata. At first I have seen the sporty challenge as my reason. Religious reasons play also an important role for pilgrims to connect stronger with God. The landscapes in Spain are fascinating. Above all the Spaniards give a new definition to the word temperament. The fellow pilgrims are talkative and are always open for discussions. One should not underestimate the spiritual dimension of these ways. Humans want to go more slowly through life. Uncountables are in a hurry and under permanent stress in everyday life. The reasons are complex, at least for the mind. Health, family, work, or money. They want to break out of the hamster wheel of endless consumption and live their life. Simply live, not so complicated.

I recognized that I was walking with higher attention on the way every day. This was leading me into deep meditation. So I have connected myself with the environment. The separation of inner and outer dissolves. You become one with the surroundings. You are working on a lot of past memories; the mental suffering becomes diminished with every step. The way gives you the energy to work on the problems. One becomes more present. The way gives everyone ideas for new projects. Nevertheless you are bound to the now. One plans his day, his route, his equipment, his refuge of destination. Problems will be tackled and thus dissolved. One recognizes himself in the humans, whom are on the way. Through the infinite conversations with the fellow pilgrims one knows himself again.

The ego, the past, and the future have no power. The now becomes more and more present. Only this one step counts. A high concentration is needed, to make this one step. The rest is repetition.

The Camino de Santiago gives us diverse, creative impulses. Inspirations, which are missing in everyday life.

I noticed on the journeys that I didn’t speak neither English nor Spanish. This experience has awaken the ambition to study intensively both languages. Stories shape this experience. I moved like lightning in the rat race. I was asking myself all questions of the world. I did not realize that my ego found always new ways. I was looking for the solution within my thoughts, but I never watched at my thoughts. I didn’t discover neither the deep consciousness, nor the time, nor the ego.

The ways of the earth have a different meaning to everyone. I got energy through the way, physically and mentally. I remind me of the way in difficult times and its positive energy.

The pilgrimage took hours, days and weeks. Every day was like a new life. New encounters, new landscapes. I have welcomed old fellow-traveller with special joy. Thus is created a feeling of belonging, of togetherness. It is like a big family. Blissful!

The way gives that to you, what you need, not what you want to have.

I have met various humans on the ways. A Brazilian. Three Chileans. An Australian. Two Spaniards.

I give them the space here to share their experience.

BRAZILIAN

I met on the Camino Francés a Brazilian Hospilatero and he had the following message:

“The Camino gives, what he and she wants to find.”

“It’s not important, what will be tomorrow or what was yesterday. You live now and not five minutes ago or five minutes later.”

“Yesterday is not important, tomorrow is not important. That, what you are doing at the moment, that is the most important in life.”

He expressed it in essence in this manner. His explanation took, remarkably, fifteen minutes.

CHILEANS

I met three chilean brothers on the Via de la Plata. It deeply impressed me, how they treat each other. What is their secret? How can they be so helpful and friendly towards each other? Always with respect and comprehension towards one another. They have shared their secrets with me:

Friendship between brothers and sisters.

Love between brothers and sisters.

Unity between brothers and sisters.

Support between brothers and sisters.

That´s all.

AUSTRALIAN

These words are by a friend of mine, Willow. He has written me a lot of messages, I find especially the following insights remarkable. He presented himself on the Camino Francés as a Songwriter. I remember that he was always eating chocolate.

“39klm was the distance travelled that day, physically. Emotionally and spiritually however, the distance can not be measured.”

“Tears welled in my eyes and a feeling unknown to me overwhelmed my entire being and carried me away to a whole new place, and from this place I could feel heaven, I was touched by my Angels, and God spoke to me calmly and fondly. A river of tears could not be stopped and I did not want them to even if I could have (and once would have), they were tears of joy, and of freedom, and of unconditional love.”

“Some pilgrims are walking a set amount of klm each day (as I did in the beginning) or are aiming to be at a set destination at days end (as I did in the beginning). The problem with this is that if you are seeking spiritual enlightenment you must remain open to the messages that 'upstairs' are trying to give. This may require silence, or require being still for more than one day, removing yourself from the way in which you always go about doing things.”

“To cut a very long story short the reason I was there was not to let go, but in fact to recieve. Something I am not very good at. I realised that to fully let go I needed to recieve. To fully recieve (unconditionally) I had to be humble. To be humble I had to let go of my ego.”

“Freedom does not have a face. There are no words or lyric set in stone. There is no particular place that you can travel to to recieve freedom if first you do not begin 'that' journey within. Freedom is in everything we do, everything we taste, everything we make, break, and/or fake, for within every moment we have the choice and the chance to begin 'that' journey.”

At the beginning I did not understand his insights at all. Much later, I understood some points clearly. Willow has shared his insights with me. I share his insights with you. Shared knowledge is double knowledge. Shared love is double love.

SPANIARDS

I took breakfast one day with two Spaniards from the older generation in a pilgrim refuge, the house of wisdom. Javier and Mecchulo. We talked about this and that. Everything seemed to be normal. This was my evaluation as an expert, although I didn’t understand any word in Spanish. Javier ate an apple. Mecchulo and I have finished with breakfast. Suddenly Javier swallowed the apple. I was shocked. What can I do? Javier didn’t say anything, he just pointed towards his throat. Mecchulo jumped up from the chair and grabbed Javier from behind. He embraced Javier from behind and pushed him very often against his breast. Javier spitted only water at first. Mecchulo looked at me and said that I should continue. I pushed with all my power against Javier´s chest. Then Mecchulo took over again. After a couple of minutes Javier’s condition improved. What a relief! He was able to speak again. Afterwards both started to run, as nothing had happened. I couldn’t keep this pace, and so I lost track of them.

This has shown me some things. How fast it happens, that everything turns around in life. At first you take your health as something natural. I have just enjoyed life. I felt invincible. As soon as there are illnesses, crises, or problems, the health has immediately a new priority. Other laws are governing from one moment to the next. For long time I wanted to be like I was before the quantum moment. Exactly this behaviour brought me into the crises. It is not possible to be in the future, like in the past.

It seems to me, that the human underlies exactly this madness. They are never satisfied. Something is never perfect. One day you want to lose 5 kilos. Another day you want to gain 5 kilos. Depending on the current fashion trend. One is never satisfied with what is here now. What is real now. Constantly one is crying for more money. More vacation. More houses. More time. More cars. Always more. There is never something enough. Where shall end this madness? That can end only in the valley of big tears. Someday one swallows the neverending consumption. Like Javier with an apple. If there is nobody to help, then everything will be kept in the throat. The inner dissatisfaction shall be equalized with outer consumption. This is not possible.

I realize, that consumption is fine. This should not go into the extremes. Not too much. Not too little. How much consumption is good? This decision has to be made every day, every moment. The house of wisdom has taught me one thing. I can get everything, reach everything, and realize everything in life. Always with the certainty, that nothing is for sure. Every thing can end in every moment.

The short story with Javier, Mecchulo and me is based on a true story. It happened on the Camino de Santiago, the Via de la Plata in Spain. For me it was a real lesson.

I thank all man which I met and still will meet. I end this article with a quote, which I have read on one of my ways.

„To reach the destiny seemed to us the most important, but now it is the way.“

Alto do Poio (Spain), 21.04.1992, Origin Unknown

The pilgrim looks on the article. She seems to be pensive and surprised at the same time. She wanted to have details and signposts. What has to be carried in the backpack? What is useful? What is necessary? I didn’t say anything about that. She leaves the room being a little disappointed. Nevertheless she takes the article with her.

2. ROLES

An athlete runs in the room.

He wants to know everything from me, Tata, how he can improve in a sporty way.

As well as physically as mentally.

How many hours he has to train? How often he has to train daily? His goal is to become the greatest football player of the world. Money and women play also an important role.

I remain quiet.

After some time I hand over to the ambitious athlete the article PLAYER, PILGRIM, STUDENT, MAN.

2.1 PLAYER, PILGRIM, STUDENT, MAN

I have played soccer for many years. I have played so long until an injury stopped me. I recovered from that. I began to play in a higher league. I trained until a collapse. I played hardly a match. I have gone until my limits. I was too ambitious. I was possessed for a long time by the dream, to be wealthy, to have money, to have a big house, to be famous. I wanted to be respected by others for what I can do. Not for what I am. I was completely imprisoned by the material world. My ego did not want to get rid of the fear of a possible defeat. I wanted to be the greatest soccer player in the universe. I wanted to win always. Always more. Always farther. Always higher. I lost more and more in doing so. It went so far, that I seemed to be in a good shape physically, although mentally I was tired.

During this time I have read a report about the Camino de Santiago in Spain. I want to do it in any case. A challenge, physically and mentally. The final test. Some months later I walked the Camino de Santiago in Spain. Respect. I have walked many kilometres. I have collected many impressions. It was a difficult journey. I got used to the long distances very fast. I was physically in a good shape. Particularly called me my spirit, my soul. A fellow pilgrim once said, that I move like a clock. All the time with a lot of energy, uphill and downhill. Always in the same rhythm. I was not able to adapt me to the individual character of the way. I was on an ego trip as a soccer player. As a pilgrim I wanted to do stuff differently. I did not want to have a lot of material things. Now I want to acquire knowledge in a high rhythm.

In this way I developed interest for languages. Especially in the area of Psychology I find it interesting, how the human functions. I removed myself from my goals on the outer level. My ego has identified less with material things, but with intellectual knowledge. The new topics were languages, psychology, and economy. These topics were my new i, where I have identified with. Career. I want this now. For many years I told all people that I do not care about material wealth. My life, the perfect career. This was the plan until the physical death. The ego identification moved away from the material level and towards the intellectual level. I was caught in my own little world. My ego has developed itself to megalomania. Everything shall be perfect, tidy and under control. All interruptions were perceived like a personal insult during this process. And sometimes I have not talked to other man for years which have crossed my path with completely trivial stuff.

Relationships and conversations with fellow man were a means to an end. I was always occupied by planning the future in a perfect manner. As a result I ignored the present moment. This was obvious in the study. I studied for longer time at different universities. I have never thought about the idea that something like safety may not exist. I raised my ambition and perfectionism towards the extreme. Everything was subordinated to the career. The last places of the priority list were reserved for relationships, health, and joy. I studied like crazy. I have passed all exams. At the end of the program the final thesis was missing. Suddenly I had fallen very deep and for my fellow man I became crazy indeed.

I desired recognition, status, safety, money, and knowledge. That was more important than listening to my soul. It does not matter how much I have. It does not matter how much I know. It is more important and easier to recognize that I am simply. I AM. Thus more can be developed. I am not my little ego. I am consciousness, which expresses itself through this body in the world. The thoughts are not the problem. However, I have identified with thoughts and thus created my ego. I fed for long time this false self-image. At first the ego has identified itself with the body. The ego has clung to the thoughts, when my body was not functioning very well. Nonetheless, I am neither my body, nor my thoughts. I am infinite consciousness.

I am here as man. I have occupied different roles as a player, pilgrim, or student. As man I will continue the journey. It will be seen, where my way in life will continue. One possibility is that I am one with the moment, with everything that is. The time has dissolved. I am free. I am not a slave of my limited believes, rules, and thoughts.

The athlete examines once again his values. His mindset, not his pulse. He expected practical advices for training. On the contrary I gave him an insight, how someone can lose himself in different roles. Of course one can experience everything that is possible in this world. It is a limited view, to lose yourself in your own ambition and to look only on the body. The sum of man consists of more than the purely physical construct of the body. To comprehend this, goes far beyond the rational mind.