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She felt good against him. Warm and soft and very feminine.

He didn’t want to let her go.

“Connor?”

The lipstick she’d applied earlier had long since worn off, yet her lips were still rosy and moist. They were slightly parted in question, giving him just a glimpse of teeth and tongue.

He swallowed.

She must have picked up on the emotions suddenly running through him. Her eyes narrowed and darkened. A low groan wedged in his throat.

“Connor?” Mia said again, her voice little more than a whisper this time.

Maybe later he would come up with a good excuse for his actions. At least an explanation. But for now…

He lowered his head and captured her mouth with his.

Diagnosis: Daddy

By

Gina Wilkins

www.millsandboon.co.uk

GINA WILKINS is a bestselling and award-winning author who has written more than seventy novels. She credits her successful career in romance to her long, happy marriage and her three “extraordinary” children.

A lifelong resident of central Arkansas, Ms Wilkins sold her first book in 1987 and has been writing full-time since. She has appeared on the Waldenbooks, B. Dalton and USA TODAY bestseller lists. She is a three-time recipient of the Maggie Award for Excellence, sponsored by Georgia Romance Writers, and has won several awards from the reviewers of Romantic Times BOOKreviews.

Available in August 2010 from Mills & Boon® Special Moments™

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The Mummy Makeover by Kristi Gold & Mummy for Hire by Cathy Gillen Thacker

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Sophie’s Secret by Tara Taylor Quinn

Her So-Called Fiancé by Abby Gaines

Diagnosis: Daddy by Gina Wilkins

For Dr Kerry Wilkins Snook. I’m so proud of you. Thanks for all your help.

Chapter One

“You look terrible.”

Connor Hayes grimaced and ran a hand through his tousled hair. “Thanks a lot, Mia. I can always count on you to boost my ego.”

Maybe she had been a little blunt, but Mia Doyle wasn’t about to take back her words. As attractive as her friend was, he looked pretty ragged at the moment. His sandy hair was in dire need of a trim, his navy blue eyes were red-rimmed and bleary, and he had the grayish pallor of someone who hadn’t seen the sun in several days. He was only thirty, but she suspected anyone meeting him for the first time today would probably guess him to be a few years older. “When’s the last time you had a full night’s sleep?”

“Define ‘full.’”

“More than four hours.”

“Hmm…it’s been a while,” he admitted.

She sighed and shook her head. “Really, Connor, you can’t go on like this. You have to get some rest.”

“I will,” he assured her. “After this test tomorrow. It’s going to be a killer.”

“They’re all killers,” she reminded him, setting a plate of food in front of him. She had to push a pile of books, notebooks and papers out of the way to find a spot on his kitchen table for the plate. “Don’t you think you’ll perform better on the test if you’re rested and fresh?”

He sighed heavily and gripped the fork she thrust into his hand. “Probably.”

“But you’ll still sit up most of the night studying,” she concluded in resignation.

The smile he gave her was sheepish. “Yeah. Probably.”

Shaking her head, she cleared off a few inches of table for her own plate. She had brought a chicken and broccoli casserole, filling and healthy. Knowing the grueling schedule her friend and former coworker was enduring during his first year of medical school, she had gotten into the habit of bringing meals to him a couple of times a week. Sometimes she quizzed him for upcoming exams, using study guides and practice tests from his stacks of materials. He seemed to enjoy her company during his near-total exile from his former social life.

She worried about him not taking good care of himself because of his obsession with doing well in medical school. And she missed seeing him every day at work, sharing lunches and class prep times together, bonding over stories of their most difficult students. This school year just hadn’t been the same without Connor there to greet her every morning with a smile and a bad joke.

They had been friends for more than three years, having both been teachers at a nearby Little Rock, Arkansas, high school. Mia taught advanced placement literature classes; Connor had taught health and physical education and had been an assistant coach for the football team. Early in their friendship, he had confessed that he wanted to attend medical school. He’d worried that he’d waited too long to even try, but she’d encouraged—well, nagged him into taking the MCAT and applying to medical school. No one had been happier for him when he’d been accepted, even though she knew it would change their relationship significantly.

“This is really good, Mia. Thanks.”

She smiled wryly as he shoveled casserole into his mouth. He was eating as if he’d forgotten all about food until now. She suspected that he’d done just that. She didn’t bother to ask when he’d last had a complete meal. Judging by the evidence she’d seen scattered around the kitchen and in the overflowing wastebasket beneath the sink, he’d been living on TV dinners and energy bars since she’d last brought him a meal, three days earlier.

“More iced tea?” she asked.

“I’ll get it.”

But she was already on her feet. She refilled his glass and then her own before putting the pitcher back in the fridge.

“Thanks,” he murmured, lifting the glass to his lips.

“You’re welcome. Is there anything I can do to help you study after you’ve eaten? I’d be happy to quiz you.”

He looked at her somberly across the table. “You’re too good to me. Especially because I’ve been neglecting you so badly lately. I even forgot to call you on your birthday.”

He had apologized profusely and repeatedly for that slip as soon as he realized what he’d done—two days after the actual event. Although she had been painfully aware that he hadn’t called on the day itself, she’d understood. He was overwhelmed with the sheer amount of information being thrown at him on a daily basis, and which he was expected to retain and be tested on at regular intervals. They had expected that the first year of medical school would be grueling, but they’d both been surprised by the arduous reality.

It was insane, they agreed. Certainly not the most efficient method of training new doctors, in their studied opinion—but it was difficult to break through the prevailing argument that “it’s always been done this way.” So all he could do was dig in and prove he had the endurance and stubbornness to make it through the first year, which seemed to be the main point of the curriculum.

“Stop apologizing about the birthday, okay? I completely understand. You had that big gross anatomy exam that afternoon and no one could blame you for being totally preoccupied by that.”

He shook his head with a rueful smile. “You’re still letting me off too easy. Med school is no excuse to blow off the best friend I’ve ever had.”

She returned the smile, then thought about what he’d said as she finished her meal. Best friends. That was the way they thought of themselves and referred to themselves to others. A slightly unconventional friendship, of course, because he was two years older and they weren’t the same gender. Some people seemed to find it hard to believe that a man and a woman could be so close without being physically involved, but she and Connor had never crossed that particular line for several reasons. Primarily because when they’d first met, he had been in the process of a divorce and in no mood to get romantically involved with anyone else so soon.

By the time his divorce was final and he had recovered somewhat from the ordeal, Mia had been seeing someone, and she and Connor had already settled into a comfortable platonic relationship based on mutual tastes and values and ideals, shared senses of humor and similar big dreams for their futures. Neither of them had wanted to risk doing anything to endanger their treasured camaraderie. So they had endured the gossip and the nosy questions, as well as the annoying suspicions of the unexpectedly possessive man she had dated and then dumped, and their friendship had survived.

They had gotten even closer after the death of his mother almost two years ago. He’d told her then that she’d somehow known just what to say and do to help him handle the grief, even though all she felt she had done was to offer to listen whenever he needed to talk.

She saw no reason for their friendship ever to end. Forgotten birthdays notwithstanding.

“Actually,” he said, pushing his emptied plate away and standing. “Wait right here. I’ve got something for you and now seems as good a time as any to give it to you.”

“You didn’t have to—”

But he was already gone. She wasn’t really startled that he’d gotten her a present because they’d been in the habit of exchanging gifts for the past couple of years. She was more surprised that he’d had time to shop. Maybe he’d ordered something over the Internet.

She had just finished loading the dishwasher with their dinner plates when he returned, a wrapped gift in his hand. “Sorry it’s late,” he said. “It was delivered just this afternoon.”

So he had shopped with the click of a computer key. Still, it was nice that he’d thought of her, and because she knew very well that his money was limited right now, considering he was attending medical school on student loans, it was a very generous gesture. “You really didn’t have to get me anything,” she repeated, even as she took the gift he offered her.

“I wanted to,” he answered simply. “Go ahead. Open it.”

“It’s heavy.” Setting the book-size box on the table, she pulled off the inexpensive red Christmas bow he’d stuck to the red-and-green plaid wrapping paper that also looked suspiciously Christmasy. Never mind that it was October; this was probably the only wrapping paper he’d had on hand, most likely left over from last year’s holidays.

Finally finding the gift beneath all the paper and tape he’d applied, she gasped. Lifting the two-volume set from the box, she read the title. “The Cambridge History of Irish Literature. Connor.”

He looked at her with a hint of nerves in his expression, as if trying to gauge whether she really was pleased with the gift. “I wasn’t sure about it, but the reviews sounded good. Like something you might like.”

“Are you kidding? This is great. Perfect for my library. But you really shouldn’t have spent this much.” He had to have spent a couple hundred dollars for this, she thought, touched that he’d gone to the effort to find something so personally tailored to her tastes.

He frowned, as if she’d struck a nerve with her comment about the cost. She knew his ex had departed with everything she could grab when she’d left him for someone else, and it had taken him a while to recover financially. The little house and an aging compact car were his only significant material assets for the moment because he was investing everything else into his future medical career.

“I wanted to get you something you’d like,” he said. “As much as you’ve done for me, it’s the least I could do in return.”

She didn’t care for the implication that the gift was payback for her support of his efforts to get into medical school and to do well now that he was in. He probably hadn’t really meant it that way, but it was certainly the way it had sounded.

Why were they both so sensitive this evening? She gave an impatient shake of her head, telling herself to snap out of it. She should just appreciate the gift and the thoughts behind it, whatever they had been. “Thank you.”

He smiled and gave her a quick, one-armed hug. “You’re welcome.”

Her heart fluttered a little, but she returned the smile easily. “Go study. I’ll clean up in here.”

He didn’t waste time arguing with her. He hauled a stack of books into the living room and had buried his head inside them before she cleared away the first plate.

It was just as well, she thought with a slight smile, that she wasn’t a particularly high-maintenance type of friend. As dear as he was to her, she wasn’t blind when it came to Connor’s faults. Lately he had been more than a little self-absorbed and decidedly obsessed with his schoolwork. She certainly understood why he needed to be that way at this point in his life, but she knew better than to invest too much of herself with a self-centered, manipulative man. Been there, done that. Still bore the emotional scars.

Connor wasn’t anything like Dale had been, but only a true masochist would get involved with a first-year med student, she thought with a wry smile.

His eyes burned so badly that Connor could hardly focus on the charts in front of him. He rubbed his closed eyes with his fingertips, which didn’t help.

He needed coffee. Some sort of stimulant to wake him up and sharpen his mind. He’d never get through all these tables tonight without it.

Standing, he walked into the kitchen, limping a little because he’d been sitting in one position for too long. He heard joints crack as he reached for a cup and he felt suddenly older than his thirty years. He hoped there was some coffee left in the insulated carafe he always kept filled. If not, he’d have to waste valuable study time making another pot.

Looking around for it, he noted that the kitchen was immaculate. Gleaming, even. Every scrap of trash was gone, all the dishes washed and put away, the stovetop and counters wiped clean. Even the floor had been swept.

Mia, he thought with a little niggling of guilt. She’d cleaned his kitchen. And he suspected that if he checked his bathroom and bedroom, he’d find that she hadn’t restricted her cleaning to this room. On an impulse, he opened the folding wood doors that concealed the washer and dryer at the far end of the kitchen. Clean jeans, T-shirts, socks and underwear were stacked neatly on the dryer. When he opened the dryer, he found a load of clean towels, still warm and fluffy. Apparently she’d had the washer and dryer running the entire time she’d been there that evening. He hadn’t even noticed.

Had he even thanked her properly for bringing dinner? He frowned, trying to clearly remember her departure…just over an hour earlier, he thought, glancing at the digital clock on the microwave. He’d been buried in his books, staring intently at a diagram of the cardiovascular system, trying to memorize the vessels that originate from the external carotid artery when she’d told him she was leaving. He remembered looking up and reciting, “The superior thyroid artery, the lingual artery, the facial artery, the occipital artery and the posterior auricular artery.”

Without even blinking, Mia had laughed and leaned over to brush a light kiss against his cheek. Her bright blue eyes had been warm in her pretty, girl-next-door face when she’d drawn away, tucking a strand of her light brown hair behind her ear. “Thank you again for the birthday present. Good luck on your test tomorrow. Call me and let me know how it went, okay?”

“Yeah, okay,” he had replied, his eyes already on the diagram again as he’d squinted at the brachiocephalic artery, which divided into the common carotid artery and the subclavian artery. “’Night, Mia. Drive carefully.”

He distinctly remembered telling her to drive carefully. Not exactly a “thank you so much for all you’ve done for me tonight and ever since I started med school, I don’t know what I would have done without you.” But at least it showed he cared about her, right?

He didn’t deserve a friend like her, he thought with a disgusted shake of his head. Maybe he could pay her back somehow when she started grad school, which was her plan after teaching and saving for another year or so.

Yeah, right. As a second-year med student, he would take another full slate of courses and begin studying for Step One of the nightmarish medical licensing exam that had to be passed before he could continue with his training. As tough as his first year had proven to be, there were some who warned that the second year was even more arduous. Hard to imagine.

In his third year, he would begin rotations through various disciplines of medicine, continue with classes, and start seeing real patients. Those rotations, with increasing levels of responsibility, would continue during his fourth year, along with preparation for the Step Two exams—clinical knowledge and clinical skills.

All assuming, of course, that he made it through the rest of this semester.

He might as well face it. He wouldn’t be helping anyone but himself for the next three and a half years—and then the four years of residency following that. He would be close to forty by the time he was a full-fledged physician, ready to strike out on his own. What on earth had made him think he could do this—and that the end result would be worth the stress, the sacrifices and the financial investment?

But that was exhaustion talking, he told himself, reaching grimly for the coffee carafe. And nerves. He’d wanted to be a doctor since he was a kid. It was his own fear and stupidity that had kept him from pursuing the goal earlier and he wasn’t going to let his dreams be derailed again.

A yellow sticky note was affixed to the carafe. “It’s decaf,” it read in Mia’s looping handwriting. “Get some sleep.”

His vague feelings of guilt dissipated and he scowled. He needed caffeine, damn it. Now he would have to make a fresh pot. He opened the lid of the carafe, and the scent of freshly brewed decaf coffee wafted to his nostrils. Mia made really good coffee.

He sighed and filled his cup. So maybe the jolt of the hot liquid alone would sharpen him long enough to finish the review he’d been studying. And she was probably right; he did need a few hours of sleep before he tackled the six-hour-long exam tomorrow.

He really didn’t deserve a friend like Mia, he thought again as he carried the steaming mug back to his papers. Someday he was going to have to figure out a way to repay her.

“So have you seen Connor lately?” Spanish teacher Natalie Berman asked as she picked at the school cafeteria lunch of greasy spaghetti, cold green beans, canned fruit cocktail and a rather stale roll.

Wishing she had remembered to pack a lunch that day, Mia swallowed a forkful of green beans before wiping her mouth with a paper towel. “I saw him a couple of nights ago. He was studying for a monster exam and I made him a casserole.”

“Is he doing okay?”

Mia shrugged and twisted her fork in the overcooked pasta. “He looks really tired. He could use a solid eight or ten hours of sleep, but I don’t think he’s going to get that until Christmas break, if he allows himself to rest even then.”

Natalie shook her dark head in disapproval. “Can’t imagine why he wanted to take that on. He had a good job here. He probably would have been named head coach when Coach Johnson retires next year. Now it’s going to be years before Connor finishes school and then he’ll have all those loans to pay back. Not that he’ll have much trouble doing that,” she admitted. “Doctors certainly make good money.”

“He didn’t go into it for the money. He’s pursuing a dream he’s had most of his life. And he’ll be a great doctor.”

“He will,” Natalie admitted. “But he was a good teacher, too. And a good coach.”

“This is what he wanted.”

“And heaven knows you want him to have everything he wants,” her friend murmured over a plastic tumbler of watery iced tea. “Just like you do for everyone else you care about. I still say you try too hard to make everyone happy.”

“Yes, well, I’m going to be very selfish when I start grad school in the next year or so. Watching Connor has reminded me of how much work it’s going to be to take classes and tests again. I’m going to have to concentrate entirely on myself while I earn my doctorate.”

Looking skeptical, Natalie crumpled her napkin and tossed it on her plate. “You? Selfish? Yeah, right.”

“Just watch me. You’ll call and want me to go shopping with you and I’ll tell you I can’t. Have to study. Or you’ll want me to give you a lift to the airport and I’ll turn you down flat because I have a paper to write.”

“Hmm.” It was obvious that Natalie didn’t believe a word of her friend’s assertion. Even Mia wondered if she would be able to follow through. She’d always had a hard time with that no word when it came to people she cared about.

“So, about tomorrow night…”

Mia paused in the process of gathering the remains of her lunch onto the brown plastic tray in preparation for carrying it to the conveyor belt that would sweep it back into the kitchen for cleaning. “What about tomorrow night?”

Natalie sighed loudly and rolled her eyes. “Double date? Me and Donnie and you and…uh, Donnie’s friend whose name I’ve forgotten.”

Groaning, Mia sat down again. “I never said I would do that. I said I would think about it.”

“C’mon, Mia, it’ll be great. Donnie’s fun and his friend’s probably fun, too.”

“Probably?”

“Well, I’ve never actually met him. But Donnie says he’s a great guy.”

“And this allegedly great guy needs a date tomorrow night because…?”

“Because he’s new in town and doesn’t know many people yet. We’re just being friendly. You know, welcoming him to town. Southern hospitality—”

“Only extends so far,” Mia muttered.

“I’m not asking you to sleep with him or anything. Just join us for dinner. Maybe a movie or something. How bad could it be?”

“You really want me to answer that?”

“Do it for me, okay? Donnie was really pleased when I said I’d bring someone to meet his friend. You don’t have to see him again if you don’t want to, but at least meet the guy.”

Letting out a gusty breath, Mia nodded. “All right. I’ll meet him.”

Natalie beamed. “Thank you. You’ll see, it will be fun.”

Mia wasn’t so sure. But she hadn’t been able to disappoint her friend.

That was going to change, she promised herself. She really was going to learn to say no. Next year.

Mia was getting ready for her double date the next evening when Connor called. “Didn’t you have another exam today? How did it go?” she asked.

“As hard as I expected. But I think I did okay on both tests this week.”

“I’m sure you did well. When will you know?”

“Middle of next week, I think.”

“Did you get any sleep last night?”

“A few hours,” he said, notably evasive. “But then I came home after the exam and crashed. Just fell facedown in the bed and slept for three solid hours.”

“You needed the rest.”

“Yeah, I feel better. Good enough that I might go out for pizza or something tonight. It’s been days since I’ve been out of the house other than to go to class or lab. Want to join me?”

For some reason, it irked her a little that he just assumed she would be free to join him on such short notice. Even though normally she would have been. And would have accepted the last-minute invitation. “I’m sorry, I can’t tonight. I have a date.”

There was a distinct pause before he responded. “Yeah? Anyone I know?”

“Not even anyone I know. Natalie set me up with someone.”

“Oh. You, um, trust Natalie’s taste in guys?”

“I guess I’ll find that out tonight.”

“Yeah. I suppose I need to let you get ready. I hope you have a good time.”

“I’ll certainly try. Thanks. And congratulations on surviving the exams.”

“Yeah. I’ll talk to you later.”

“Sure. Later.”

She disconnected the call with a frown. That had been a bit weird. Connor had actually seemed disapproving that she was going out on a blind date. Surely he wasn’t annoyed that she’d been unavailable to have pizza with him. If so, then maybe it was time she stopped being quite so available for Connor. Maybe he was starting to take her a bit too much for granted.

Resolutely, she turned to the mirror to finish applying fresh makeup. Tonight could be fun, she reminded herself. This guy Natalie had found for her could be very nice, she could have a great time, they might even want to see each other again. She should really be looking forward to this date.

Unfortunately, she was too keenly aware that she would much rather have been free to go out for pizza with Connor.

Connor joined four of his classmates for a study session Saturday morning. The five of them had met several times to study together during this first semester of medical school. They seemed to click as a group, and their learning styles meshed well. He liked them all and enjoyed working with them, although sometimes he just needed to study alone. Or with Mia.

The thought of Mia made him frown. He wondered how her date had gone the night before.

He was undoubtedly a selfish jerk. He should be pleased that she’d had the chance to go out and have a good time. Like him, Mia tended to be a workaholic. When she wasn’t actually teaching, she was preparing for classes or grading papers or doing something nice for a friend. It was rare that she took advantage of an evening just to indulge herself. And while he suspected that her double date last night had been a favor to Natalie, he should still be hoping that she’d had a great time.

Instead, he found himself worrying that she’d had too good a time. For all he knew, she could be with that guy right now. Laughing and flirting and…well, whatever. And he was trying to study, wishing she were with him to light his house with her smile, to cheerfully nag him into eating and taking breaks, to reassure him that he could survive this training and that all the effort and sacrifice would pay off someday.

He really was selfish, he thought again, shaking his head in disapproval. Mia deserved so much more than the distracted friendship that was all he could offer her at the moment. Of course, she had big plans of her own. Grad school was going to take a great deal of her time and energy. Did she really want to start a new romance with this guy Natalie had scrounged up now and risk jeopardizing her own carefully worked-out agenda?

He winced as he realized that he was merely rationalizing his desire for her to stay as single and unattached as he was.

“Hey, Connor. Come on, man, get with the program. You’ve been a zombie all afternoon.”

Connor met Ron Gibson’s quizzical gaze apologetically. “I know. Sorry. I think I might be on study overload.”

“Who isn’t?” Anne Easton asked with a weary sigh. She pushed her pale blond hair out of her face, which was bare of makeup today, making her look even younger than her twenty-three years. Anne was the youngest of the group; Connor was the eldest.

“Anyone want a soda?” James Stillman, their host for today, pushed himself out of his chair at the table and moved toward the fridge. Of all of them, the material came the easiest to James. Maybe because at only twenty-six, he had already obtained a doctorate in microbiology before deciding to attend medical school.

Connor didn’t know why James hadn’t gone the M.D./Ph.D. route, which would have allowed him to pursue the degrees simultaneously, but he supposed James had simply changed his mind about which career he wanted. While Connor liked James, he had a hard time reading him. Brilliant and affable, James revealed little about himself, even to this group who had become his friends.

“Toss a soda this way,” Ron accepted with one of his quick grins. Twenty-five-year-old Ron had messy brown hair, smiling brown eyes, a contagious grin bracketed by dimples and an irrepressible sense of humor that somehow survived even the most grueling session.

Haley Wright, the final member of the group, often grew exasperated with Ron, asking if he took anything seriously. To which Ron always replied, “Only having fun, kiddo. I always take that seriously.”

It was a wonder, really, that Ron had fallen in with this generally more-serious group. And yet somehow he, too, just seemed to fit in naturally.

“I’d take some more coffee,” Connor said, standing with his empty mug. “I’ll get it.”

Haley followed him with her own coffee mug, and Anne made herself a second cup of herbal tea. Always the gracious host, James provided everything they needed when they met at his tidy apartment. They’d already devoured the pizzas he’d had delivered at noon. A plate of cookies and a bowl of candy sat in the middle of the paper-strewn, round oak table where they studied, in case anyone needed a sugar jolt.

Popping the top of his soda can, Ron studied Connor’s face. “So, is there anything in particular bugging you today? You’re not all that worried about the histology exam Monday, are you?”

“I worry about all the exams,” Connor answered drily. “But no more for this one than the others. I guess I really am just tired.”

“A few more weeks until Thanksgiving,” Haley said with a wistful sigh. “Four whole days with no classes or exams. I’m keeping a countdown to give myself incentive until then.”

Twenty-six-year-old Haley had honey hair, amber eyes and a firmly pointed little chin that was evidence of her tenacious personality. She was the cheerleader of the group, the one who kept everyone else encouraged and on track. She was the one who called when she sensed they were down, who prodded when she thought they were slacking off, who seemed most delighted when they did well.

Anne, on the other hand, was probably the most competitive of them all. Not because she had a desire to show them up or to always be the best, Connor had decided, but because she seemed to have a need to prove something. To herself? To her family? He didn’t know, but he worried about her sometimes. He thought she needed to cut herself a little slack, to allow for mistakes and failures rather than always demanding perfection of herself. She was going to burn out fast if she didn’t relax a little, he feared.