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Prologue. The Point of No Return

He understood it on the day he came back to base empty-handed for the third time running.

Three trips. Three weeks. Feet rubbed raw, two containers of samples that Kolyan the fence took with a sour face and paid half of what they'd agreed — because "market's like that, brother, nobody wants this crap right now." He got it. Nodded. Took the money. Sat down on the bench by the barracks and stared at the mud under his feet for a long time.

In his pocket was a letter from Irina. Paper — she wrote on paper as a matter of principle, said "so you can hold something in your hands, since you're not holding me." He didn't open it for two days. He knew what was in it. Didn't want to know more precisely.

"Masha hasn't slept in three nights. Her temperature was thirty-eight. The doctor came, said the same thing he always says. I don't understand what you're looking for out there, Misha. We're waiting for you. Masha is waiting. Do you hear me — waiting."

He heard her.

He heard every word of every letter. Read them, reread them, folded them into a plastic bag inside his rucksack — carefully, without a single crease. That was his anchor.

Only the artifact never turned up.

Not "eternal flame" — supposedly a cure for genetic mutations, and worth enough money to buy half their hometown. Not "night star" — a legend people whispered about around campfires, and no one could confirm they'd seen it with their own eyes. Other things turned up: "fireball" — good, but not it. "medusa" — rare, but not it. "crystal bubble" — beautiful, useless. Not it. Never it.

Stalkers around the fire told stories about a veteran named Begemot, who'd found something "genuinely medicinal" and sold it to some professor for a six-figure sum. He listened. Asked questions. Begemot had died three years back — walked into a carousel in the northern sector, going solo.

The stories ended differently, every time. The Zone never ended at all.

He opened the letter.

Read it to the end. Sat quietly — a minute, maybe two. Then stood, shouldered his rucksack, and went to get clearance for the next run. In the morning.

That was when he understood it.

Not in words. It never came out right in words — whenever he tried to put it into a sentence, it came out either too frightening or too trite. Something just clicked — the way a safety clicks when it's taken off. Quiet. No going back.

He wasn't leaving. Not anymore.

Not because there was nothing left to lose. Just the opposite — there was still plenty to lose. A wife. A daughter. An apartment overlooking a park where they used to walk every Sunday, back when Masha was healthy. Coworkers who still invited him to the odd office party. A life waiting for him on the other side of the perimeter — a decent, comprehensible, warm life.

He wasn't leaving. Because there was something in there, inside the Zone. He felt it — not with his mind, not with instruments. With something that had no name but worked all the same. Something was waiting for him. Lying somewhere deep, beneath layers of anomalous filth and animal trails and other people's routes, waiting for him to finally come and take it.

That's how it felt to him.

It felt that way because the Zone knew how to draw people in, wrap around them, and never let go again.

* * *

He sat on the bench until it got dark. At first — just sat. Then he started thinking. Methodically, the way he always thought when a problem needed breaking down.

Three years. He'd been walking the Zone for three years. Counting the first run — twenty-eight routes, twelve of them longer than three days. He knew the northern sector better than he knew his own rented apartment back in the city. Knew where the water pooled after rain, where the detector started lying because of interference, which grid square had more carousels than the old notes on his handheld showed. That knowledge had piled up on its own — no intention, no plan. It just accumulated, because he walked and watched and listened.

Outside, he no longer had that. Nothing like it.

Out there he had a rented room with a window overlooking a parking lot. A job he hadn't formally quit — took vacation days, sick leave, whatever he could — but which was already starting to look at him like a man about to quit on his own. Irina — with her paper letters and a patience that had a limit. Masha — with her serious look and her question, "Dad, when will I get better?"

He'd answer: soon.

Soon never came.

But the Zone was there. Every time he crossed the perimeter, something inside him stopped hurting. Not because it was safe here — just the opposite. Because here things were clear. Here every decision had direct consequences. Here there was nothing to wait for — not "soon," not anything else. You just had to walk, watch, listen.

He understood something else too, sitting on that bench.

He was searching for an artifact for Masha. That much was true. But somewhere — deep, below that truth — he was searching for something else too. Something with no name. The very thing that made him walk not toward the perimeter, once the route was finished, but further. One more grid square. One more hour. More.

The Zone held him — not by force. By a promise.

Not a specific one: not "you'll find the artifact," not "you'll understand something important." Just — the promise that there was something more out there.

That was the point of no return. Not the moment leaving became impossible. The moment he stopped wanting to — before he'd even fully realized it.

He got up from the bench. Went inside. Lay down.

The Zone stayed silent beyond the barrack walls — dark, nocturnal, patient. It knew how to wait.

Chapter 1. The Scientist's Son

His father explained the Zone through equations.

Mikhail remembered sitting in the study as a child — a narrow window, heavy dark cabinets, the smell of paper and old tobacco that had soaked into the wallpaper so deeply it had become part of the air itself. His father stood at the blackboard he'd hung right there in the apartment — his wife grumbled but gave up fighting it — and wrote. The chalk squeaked. Formulas branched from the upper corner downward and to the right, filling the whole space.

— Right here, Misha, — his father would say, — a quantum field. See? It doesn't just exist — it interacts. Every interaction changes the state. A change in state gives rise to a new interaction. Understand?

— Not really, — Misha would say honestly.

— Fine. Then the time will come and you will.

His father laughed — his own particular laugh, quiet and inward, one he only allowed himself at home. At work he was different: reserved, precise, with the kind of professional calm Misha later learned to tell apart from the real thing.

Sergei Alekseyevich Zemtsov had worked in quantum physics for thirty years. Wrote papers published in journals with long, unpronounceable names. Traveled to conferences in Moscow, and once to Berlin, where he brought Misha back a small folding knife and a book in German that Misha could never read but kept for years. Worked at an institute where everyone knew him by his name and patronymic and stepped aside for him at the coffee machine.

And then the Zone expanded.

Not in an explosion — that would have been understandable. An explosion has a specific point, a specific cause, a specific radius. The Zone expanded differently: slowly, unevenly, with anomalies that obeyed none of the known models of spread. One day the perimeter had to be pushed back three kilometers to the west. A week later — another kilometer and a half to the north. And that's when people started asking questions that had no answers.

His father left for the research center when Misha was twelve.

Not for good — not at first. A posting, three months. Then three months became six, six became a year. Then he came home on weekends, then on holidays, then — less and less. His mother explained it as the importance of the work. Misha didn't argue. He understood it himself — by the gleam in his father's eyes, which his father no longer bothered to hide: out there, by the Zone, he'd found what ordinary physics never gave him. A mystery with no solution. A phenomenon that fit none of the equations on his blackboard.

It was stronger than family. Misha understood that later. Much later.

On his last visit home — Misha was fifteen, it was summer, hot — his father took several sheets covered in small handwriting out of a worn briefcase and spread them on the kitchen table.

— Look, — he said. — These aren't just anomalies. They're fields. Quasi-fields — we haven't come up with a better word yet. They behave like classical fields only as a first approximation. In reality — they're adaptive. Every interaction with a person changes the field's behavior. Understand?

Misha looked at the pages. He understood — not all of it, but a lot. His father taught well.

— And artifacts? — he asked.

— Artifacts are interaction nodes. Points where the quasi-field fixed a change and crystallized it. — His father paused briefly. — Some of them contain information. Not in the digital sense — in the physical one. They change the state of the objects they come into contact with. Tissue, cells, molecules. We're only starting to understand the mechanism.

— Do they heal?

His father looked at him — a long look, with the expression Misha later learned to read as "good question, complicated answer."

— Some of them — yes. In a certain sense. But the Zone isn't a pharmacy, Misha. Remember that. It wasn't made to help people. It simply is. What we take from it — that's our interpretation. Our need.

Misha nodded.

He remembered it.

Two years later, his father died. A heart attack — right there in the lab, at night, working alone. They found him in the morning. On the desk lay calculations he hadn't finished.

Misha was seventeen. He enrolled at the polytechnic in "Engineering Physics" — not out of romance, not in memory of his father. He simply knew how to calculate and understood complex mathematical models — his father's doing. Back then, that seemed useful.

* * *

Twenty-two years old — his first job. The design department of a closed research institute on the edge of the city. Shielding, electromagnetic protection, field calculations. Dull and ordinary. Salary a bit above average, an older staff, a boss with a habit of showing up late to meetings while demanding punctuality from everyone under him.

Misha fit in fast. Worked carefully, didn't argue, did what was needed.

He got married at twenty-four. Irina taught at a school — mathematics, which Misha liked right away: a person who explains formulas to children can always make herself understood in plain language, without the feminine mystery Misha never understood. She was direct, no wasted words, with a light irony that never turned into anger. Misha liked that. He was the same way himself — or tried to be.

Masha was born when he was twenty-seven.

Small, with dark hair that later lightened, with a serious look that only grew more serious with age. She watched the world with that astonished attention children have when something is already inside them — something that just needs time to grow into.

Ten years flew by like a single moment. Daughter, wife, work, Saturdays at the dacha, Sundays in the park. The normal life of a normal man. As for how normal it really was, in a time when the Zone kept quietly expanding and rumors about artifacts moved through the markets like exchange rates — he didn't think about that. He caught snatches of news about the Zone. At work, colleagues sometimes discussed projects studying artifact properties. That was somewhere far away. Not his.

* * *

Masha was ten when she got sick.

Not a cold, not the flu — something else, something the doctors couldn't name for a long time. Her fever ran for weeks, then dropped, then climbed again. Her tests came back with anomalies that didn't fit any standard diagnosis. The child grew weaker. Ate poorly. Slept poorly. She'd look at Misha with serious eyes and ask:

— Dad, when will I get better?

He'd say: soon.

The doctors had no answers.

The third specialist — paid, at a good clinic — gave a preliminary diagnosis. A rare syndrome, autoimmune, with a neurological component. Treatment — symptomatic. Prognosis — cautious and vague.

— What does that mean? — Irina asked.

— It means we can manage the symptoms. But cure it — no. Not now. Maybe in the future.

In the future...

Misha rode home on the metro, staring into the dark glass. Across from him — an ad: "Take the Next Step." A picture — mountains, a man gazing into the distance. He almost smiled.

That evening he went to a stalker forum. Not for the first time — he'd read them occasionally, with a professional's interest in descriptions of anomalies. Now he was looking for something else.

"Artifacts with healing properties — real, or just campfire stories?"

The thread turned out to be an old one, with hundreds of replies. Misha read until three in the morning.

Chapter 2. The First Time

Preparation took six months.

He didn't rush it. Not because he wanted to drag it out — he simply understood: an unprepared man in the Zone lives exactly as long as it takes to make his first mistake. He'd read that on the same forum, and it matched what his father used to say.

He found an instructor — a former walker who taught "safety techniques in anomalously contaminated territories" for money. Officially. Over three months he went through six lessons: basic topography, working with a detector, recognizing anomalies by indirect signs, first aid for radiation exposure. The instructor's name was Palych. He was past sixty, wore his coveralls even indoors, and smelled of something Misha didn't place right away — later he realized it was the smell of anomalous dust, the kind that works into fabric and never washes out.

— You an engineer? — Palych asked at the first lesson.

— Physicist. Engineer-physicist.

— That's good. Means you won't go poking a finger at an "electra" and then wonder where your finger went. What's bad is you think you'll be able to understand how it works. You won't. Nobody does. Remember that and don't fool yourself.

Misha remembered.

He assembled his gear methodically. Not the most expensive — he didn't have money for that — but reliable. A coveralls suit with second-tier radiation protection. An "Echo" detector — a Chinese copy of the German "Analyzer," worked worse than the original but cost half as much. A knife. A medkit. A flashlight with two spare batteries. A compass — mechanical, no electronics. A military-surplus rucksack he bought at the market from a man with an unremarkable face.

For a weapon — an old Makarov. Not because he couldn't afford better. Because he thought: I'm going a short distance, not deep, not for long. I won't need more.

That was a mistake. The first of many.

* * *

He crossed the perimeter in the third grid square, northern sector.

March. The ground still frozen, the air sharp, with a chemical edge Palych called "anomalous exhaust." The detector chirped quietly — background, just background. Misha walked the beaten path he'd been shown during his training: "safe," in quotes, because nothing in the Zone is safe, but a path walked often enough all the same.

The first forty minutes — nothing.

A forest like any forest. A little quieter than usual — fewer birds, the wind behaving strangely, as if it didn't dare go past a certain mark. The ground a shade darker. The smell — that same chemical one, more distinct now.

Then — the first anomaly.

He saw it by the way the air trembled — exactly as Palych had taught: not head-on, at the edge of his sight, a turn, a stop, an assessment. About seven meters off, a little left of the path — a carousel, small, young. The grass around it clipped in a circle, as if traced with a compass. At the center — a faint glow, almost invisible in daylight.

His heart pounded. Not from fear — from recognition.

He'd seen this in photographs, in descriptions, in the training materials his father used to bring home. But a photograph wasn't the same. This was alive. Real. The Zone was real — not an abstraction on a forum, not a calculated model on a blackboard.

Misha went around the anomaly in a wide arc — five meters, as he'd been taught. Scanned the area — no artifacts. Moved on.

The detector chirped at two "fireballs" an hour later — one dull, worthless, the other decent, but not what he needed. He took the second. Went back to the perimeter.

His head didn't ache. His hands didn't shake. His coveralls were clean, apart from the mud on his boots.

Misha stood at the edge of the perimeter and looked back.

The Zone stayed silent.

* * *

He went out on his second run two weeks later.

Same route — northern sector, third grid square, the same path. He already knew it by heart: where the ground went soft, where the detector started lying because of a nearby "electra," where it was better not to cut through the brush. He walked with more confidence.

On the third hour, just as he was about to turn back, he heard it.

At first — just a rustle. Not wind, not a branch. Something heavy, alive, moving with the wrong rhythm. The detector stayed silent — mutants gave off no anomalous signal, he knew that from theory. In practice, theory ran into reality just like that, without warning.

Pseudoflesh came out of the bushes fifteen meters off.

An ugly thing — he'd seen photographs, they never conveyed the smell. Sour, heavy, alive. Three hundred kilos of deformed flesh on four legs with joints bent wrong. Small eyes stared with no expression — not vicious, not hunting. Just staring.

Then it moved.

Not running — walking. Heavy, swaying, with that characteristic squelch of hooves on frozen ground that would haunt his dreams for months afterward. Misha yanked out the Makarov. Fired twice — hit both times, he could shoot. The pseudoflesh didn't even slow down. A nine-millimeter round against a carcass like that — like throwing peas at a wall.

He understood that a second before it halved the distance between them.

Running — the path was too narrow, it would catch him. Shooting — useless. There was one option left: sideways.

Misha jumped into the bushes to the right of the path, fell, rolled, stood. The pseudoflesh went past him — carried by its own momentum, it hadn't managed to turn in time. But it was already turning back.

Then — a different kind of squelch. Sharp. Like something breaking in the air.

The pseudoflesh had caught the jelly — an anomaly Misha hadn't seen, because he didn't know what it looked like from the outside, because he hadn't spotted it in time, because this was only his second time here and he still didn't really know anything yet. The jelly held the creature for about five seconds while it struggled — long enough for Misha to get away.

He didn't look back. Just walked.

Past the perimeter, he stopped. Leaned his back against a tree. Breathed.

The Makarov was still in his hand. His knuckles white from gripping it.

If not for the jelly. If the anomaly had sat a meter to the right. If the pseudoflesh hadn't clipped its edge. The Makarov isn't a weapon. It's the illusion of a weapon. I need something serious.

That same evening he posted on the forum: "Recommend an AKS for the Zone, budget up to eight thousand."

Twenty-three replies came in.

* * *

He drove home. On the way he called Irina — "everything's fine, I'll be back for dinner." Sold the fireball to the dealer, got pennies for it. Stopped at the pharmacy, bought Masha some vitamins. Had dinner. Watched his daughter sleep.

That night he lay with his eyes open, thinking about the Zone. About the jelly. About how he'd been five steps from death and never noticed the anomaly that saved him.

Chapter 3. Krot

The second run came two weeks later. The third — one week after that.

By summer he was going once a month, by autumn — once every three weeks, by the following spring — a steady twice a month. Masha kept getting sick — sometimes she'd feel a little better, but more often she felt bad, as if the illness stood still in one place while the doctors still had no clear answers about treatment.

Misha searched.

On forums, in talks with dealers, in bars by the perimeter — everywhere he was let in. The stalker community accepted outsiders cautiously: watching, sizing up, keeping their distance. But Misha didn't pester people with questions, didn't brag, didn't whine. He listened. Helped out now and then — could plan a route, fix electronics, explain anomalies to research-center assistants from a physicist's angle none of the stalkers knew at that level. That bought him access.

Gradually, people started to recognize him.

Not by a callsign — he didn't have one yet. Just "the physicist," sometimes "four-eyes" — he wore glasses, though he switched to contacts in the Zone. Neither nickname stuck. He wasn't colorful enough for one.

At one of the rest stops — late autumn, a frozen November, a fire of three logs, six walkers none of whom had known each other more than a week — he first heard about "Stardust."

It was Gorbaty talking — a veteran, about fifty, with a nose that had healed crooked after a break, which was where his callsign came from.

— I saw it once, — Gorbaty said, staring into the fire. — Didn't take it, didn't find it — saw it, is what I mean. Lying in a crevice, three kilometers from Dead City. Glowing blue, even, no pulse to it. Doesn't look like an artifact at all — more like a crystal with flecks in it, like you're looking at a night sky, perfect shape, edges almost exact.

— And? — someone at the fire asked.

— Didn't take it. Wasn't alone, had a client. Client got held up at a springboard, I went back. When I came back — empty. Somebody got there first, or the anomaly swallowed it back up, detector showed nothing.

— What's it do, does it heal?

— So they say. — Gorbaty shrugged. — Say if you keep it on your body all the time, something changes at the cellular level. Regeneration speeds up, immunity spikes. The scientists pay well for it. Very well. Though who'd hand a thing like that over to scientists, and it's rare besides.

Misha drank his tea and said nothing. Just remembered.

"Stardust." The Dead City area.

* * *

Dead City sat in the western sector, seven kilometers from the nearest entry point. Closed to loners — not because it was forbidden, but because only a handful of first-timers ever came out alive. A dense anomalous field, mutants seen nowhere else. Old military presence, abandoned in a hurry, with gear and equipment rusting exactly where it had been dropped.

Misha didn't go there that year. Or the next.

He knew his level. That was one of the lessons Palych had given him, and one Misha accepted without argument: overestimate yourself in the Zone, and you don't come back. He walked, gained experience, sold artifacts, saved money. In small pieces.

By the third year — things got better. Not with Masha. With him.

He learned to read the Zone.

Not the way you read a book — not through the eyes. Through the feet, through the skin, through something his father used to call "a stalker's intuition" — a feeling that comes from living long enough in a space governed by nonlinear laws. The detector started to feel unnecessary. Not because it wasn't needed — it was, as insurance. But Misha started to predict anomalies before the signal ever beeped.

That scared him at first.

Then he got used to it.

* * *

The callsign Krot came in his fourth year.

He was crossing a sector with two other walkers — Rvany and Kleshch, both familiar, both experienced. The job was simple: collecting in an area where, according to the scientists' recon, dummies had gathered after the last emission. Small money, but safe.

They found the dummies. Rvany filled his container and stopped — enough. Kleshch too. Misha asked for one more hour.

— What are you even looking for out there? — Rvany asked.

— There should be a "night star" here. I saw a distinctive mark on the ground — just need to search a three-hundred-meter radius around it.

— You've already gone around in circles twice and found nothing, — Kleshch said. — Like a mole, I swear. Digging and digging — no result.

Misha didn't answer. Went.

He found — not the "night star." Another rare first-category artifact. Good money. Not what he needed, but better than coming back empty.

At the base, Rvany greeted him with: "Oh, look, Krot's back."

By the end of the week, it had stuck.

Krot. He didn't object at first, then stopped noticing, then accepted it. Callsigns in the Zone are like skin: uncomfortable to wear until you get used to it. After that, you don't even think about it.

* * *

The fifth year brought the first serious talk with Irina.

Not a fight — Irina wasn't the type to make scenes. Just a conversation at the table, in the evening, while Masha slept. Irina poured tea, set it in front of him, sat across from him, and said:

— Misha, I want to understand. Are you still going out there because you believe you'll find something for Masha? Or is it a different reason now?

He didn't answer right away.

— I don't know, — he said finally. — Both, probably.

— That's honest. — She was quiet a moment. — Then one more question. If Masha got better tomorrow — on her own, no artifacts — would you stop going?

A long pause.

— I don't know, — he said again.

Irina nodded. Stood, cleared the cups. Before leaving the kitchen, she stopped.

— I thought you'd say "yes." Or at least "probably." — A pause. — Goodnight, Misha.

He sat at the empty table and looked at the cold tea.

It was the first time he understood something Irina had understood earlier.

Chapter 4. Deeper

After that talk with Irina, he went to Dead City.

Not alone — with a group of four. Two veterans: Slon and Prut — an odd pair. Slon was hulking and slow, living up to his callsign to a fault. Prut — thin and jittery, twitchy to look at, but in the Zone that vanished somewhere: he moved quietly, read the terrain well, reacted fast. The fourth — young, Vorobey, two years of experience, going into the western sector for the first time.

Krot was going for the first time too — but didn't say so.

Professional caution: don't announce your ignorance ahead of time. Better to listen and watch.

* * *

Dead City lived up to its name.

Not through beauty — no, "beautiful" wasn't the word. Through the sheer scale of its emptiness. They entered from the eastern outskirts — through an old industrial quarter, along concrete fences topped with rusted barbed wire that no one had bothered to cut, and which had long since stopped keeping anyone out. Beyond the fences — workshops. Collapsed roofs, broken window frames, machines still standing where they'd never been hauled away. Or never wanted to be. One of the shops was sealed — the doors welded shut, and on those doors someone had once painted a skull in white. The paint had flaked. The skull remained.

The residential blocks started half a kilometer on.

A housing district — or what was left of one. Five-story buildings, a few taller panel blocks that had held up decently — the concrete had lasted. But no living foot had clearly set in them for a long time — not just human, even mutants gave certain streets a wide berth. Why — unclear. The detector showed a moderate background, nothing critical. But something in the air pressed down — not radiation, not chemistry. The pressure of a space that had gotten used to being empty and wanted nothing else.

Slon called it "cursed patches."

— Every place in the Zone that's been empty a long time starts wanting to stay empty, — he said, as they walked down the central avenue, past rusted buses and leaning lampposts. — It's not mysticism. It's the fields. An anomalous field stabilizes around absence. Around emptiness. When you walk in — you disrupt the stabilization. The field pushes you back out.

— That's why it presses like this? — young Vorobey asked.

— That's why. You'll get used to it. Or you won't.

Krot walked and listened and thought: there it is. The very thing his father used to talk about — adaptive quasi-fields reacting to presence. Not hostile, not friendly — just reacting. The way a liquid reacts to a solid body. Simply trying to return to equilibrium.

He looked at windows with nothing behind them. At cars fused into the asphalt — one stood right in the middle of an intersection, door open, as if the driver had stepped out and would be right back. Coming back any decade now.

In Dead City, time had stopped. Not metaphorically — literally: he felt it through his feet, through that same nameless sense that had taken three years to develop. The field here was different — not active, not aggressive. Frozen. Like resin that had long since hardened and no longer flowed, but would never disappear either.

* * *

On the third hour of the route, Vorobey asked to stop.

— There, — he said, nodding to the side. — Detector's spiking. Might be something.

Slon looked where Vorobey had nodded. A five-story building, a side entrance, a breach in the first-floor wall — neat, as if cut out. Not an anomaly — an old explosion. Dark inside.

— No, — Slon said.

— Why? Good signal.

— Because dark rooms in Dead City — no. — Slon said it flat, just a fact. — There's "burners" in the corridors. Invisible. Lost a man in there three years back.

Vorobey looked at the breach.

— Understood, — he said. — Not going.

They moved on.

Krot remembered that moment — the way Vorobey nodded and looked away. Calmly. No resentment. A good sign. The young ones who get angry at being told no live shorter lives than the young ones who listen.

Then everything went wrong.

Prut found something — not an artifact, just an old military rucksack by a wall, right on the ground, barely decayed. Nothing valuable inside, but he pulled it out, looked it over. Vorobey came to look. They stood three meters from the wall, talking.

Krot, at that moment, was at the corner — checking the alley next over. Slon — across the street, back to them.

The wall came down without a sound.

Not an explosion. It just — settled. The top floor started sliding first, then the second, then the whole thing went down with that long low sound Krot would hear in his dreams afterward. Prut reacted — jumped clear, rolled, stood. Vorobey didn't make it.

Not because he was slow. Just — didn't make it. Half a second, maybe less.

The dust settled after a minute.

Slon stood at the edge of the rubble and looked. Didn't shout, didn't call out — just looked. Then turned.

— Let's go, — he said.

— Vorobey's in there, — Prut said.

— I know.

— We need to—

— Let's go, — Slon repeated. Same tone. — He's under the third slab. Can't reach him. Trying means bringing down the next one.

Prut said nothing.

Krot looked at the rubble. Thought about how Vorobey had been coming to Dead City for the first time. How he'd had two years of experience and the makings of a good stalker.

The Zone didn't consider that enough to survive.

— Let's go, — Krot said.

They walked.

* * *

They never found "Stardust."

They found something else: "shimmering dawn" — a rare artifact, neutral in effect, valuable to collectors. Found some "meat chunks" — a few, good quality. Krot took a couple for himself — good to sell, but the main thing was, in one specimen he made out a structure he hadn't seen before. Inside — something like a crystal lattice, regular, almost symmetrical. He held the artifact in his gloved hand and looked at it too long — until Slon called out.

— Krot. Time.

— Coming.

He looked another second and put it away.

It wasn't "Stardust." But something told him — the principle was the same. Same structure, only simpler, a lower degree of crystallization. Like he'd found ordinary salt where he'd been looking for a diamond, and realized: same geology, same process, just different conditions.

They walked back in silence.

Prut didn't say a word until the perimeter. Neither did Slon. Krot said nothing either — because there was nothing to say, and empty words in the Zone sound worse than silence.

Vorobey stayed in Dead City.

Dead City took him as its due — no mourning, no ceremony. Just took him. One more quiet place in a quiet city.

Krot went back four more times over the following six months. Every time, he walked past that rubble. Never stopped.

* * *

The sixth year brought a loss.

Not death — not yet. A different kind of loss: Irina said she was tired of waiting.

Not suddenly, not all at once. It built up slowly — every run, every "I'll be back in a week, Ira, this is important," every dinner where he stared at the table and thought about Dead City. She held out a long time — longer than anyone else in her place would have, Krot understood later. Irina was the kind of person who endures on principle: as long as there's any chance to change things, you give that chance a shot.

The chance never came.

— I'm not asking you to choose between me and the Zone, — she said. — You already chose, a long time ago. I'm just telling you I accept that choice. For you. And I'm making my own.

— Ira...

— Masha stays with me. Not because you're a bad father — you're a good one, when you're here. It's just that you're rarely here.

He didn't argue. There was nothing to argue with.

The divorce went through quietly, no court battle — Mikhail gave everything to Irina and their daughter, no scenes. Krot rented a room five minutes from the old apartment — to be close to Masha when he came around. Irina didn't stop him from seeing his daughter. That was the best that could have come out of all that bitterness.

Masha would ask: "Dad, why do you live there now?"

— That's just how it worked out, sweetheart.

— Will you still come?

— Of course.

— Every day?

A pause.

— When I can.

Masha nodded. A serious look. She was sixteen already — her illness had cost her so much of her youth.

— Fine, — she said. — Just come.

He came. Not every day — no. But he came.

Chapter 5. The Price of the Search

A year after the divorce, he became the man Borland would later see sitting at a table in the Barkeep's bar.

Good gear, well-worn — not the kind you go out in to make an impression, but the kind that works and that you trust. He'd replaced his detector three times before finding one he liked — the "Veles," expensive, but precise, calibrated for the anomalous fields of the western and northern sectors. He'd swapped his weapon after his very first run — an AKSU, then in his third year a plain AK with a proper stock, because sometimes the stock did the work too.

His biography had gathered details he never told anyone, but you could see them: the correct way his feet fell on unfamiliar ground. The habit of stopping before a turn — not out of fear, but to listen. The ability to read a map while moving, without slowing down.

He liked the Zone.

That was a truth he finally let himself say out loud — not to anyone else, to himself. Sitting alone by a fire in an abandoned house, eating canned food, thinking that in three days there'd be a checkpoint, an exit, a bus into the city, Masha — and realizing he didn't want to.

Not that he didn't want to see Masha. Not that he didn't want to leave.

Just — he wanted to stay here a little longer. In this silence, in this space that presses and lives and says not a single word, yet always lets you know it's there.

He was better off here than out there.

That was bad news.

* * *

He found "Stardust" at the end of the year he and Irina divorced.

Not in Dead City — in its outskirts, in a half-buried culvert he'd climbed into following someone's old map marked "check this." The mark was three years old; whoever made it had, by all appearances, died. Krot found the entrance, waded two hundred meters through knee-deep water, found a narrow tunnel, and in the tunnel — a crack in the wall, and in the crack — a blue glow.

Even. No pulse to it.

"Stardust." Exactly as Gorbaty had described.

He stood in front of it a long time. Three minutes, maybe five. The detector showed a strong anomalous effect, but not a dangerous one — more like a strong field that pressed but didn't burn. Krot looked at the blue light and thought about his father. About what his father used to call "crystallization points." About Masha.

He took it carefully — a fourth-class container, double walls, protective lining. Closed it. Climbed out of the culvert. Stood on the surface a minute in the wind.

Two days later he was home.

He took out the container. Sat at the table. Set it in front of him — just to look at it again, to check it hadn't been a hallucination. The blue light came through the container's lid — faint, even.

He picked up the phone. Called Irina.

— Ira. I found "Stardust."

A pause.

— And?

— It's the one. Matches every description. I want to give it to Masha — she'll get better.

A longer pause. Irina didn't answer right away. Then she did. Her voice was quiet — not the tired kind of quiet. Different.

— Masha died last night. A sudden decline. Her heart.

* * *

Krot sat with the phone in his hand after she hung up. The blue light came through the container. Steady. No pulse.

He didn't cry — not right away. Just sat, looking in the direction he'd come from. The Zone was out there, past the perimeter. Calm, as always. Guilty of nothing.

He thought back to his last conversation with Masha. Two weeks ago — she'd asked him not to go. Laughed at his stories. Her laugh had been good — light, unforced. Real.

Krot closed his eyes.

Then opened them.

* * *

He came to the funeral. Stood beside Irina, who stared at one point and held her hands folded in front of her. Irina never blamed him for anything. Not then, not later. She was smarter than that.

After the funeral they sat in the kitchen of the old apartment. He drank tea. Irina drank tea. The neighbors and relatives had gone home.

— I didn't make it in time, — he said.

Irina said nothing.

— I searched. Searched so long.

— I know.

— She died while I was out there.

— Yes. — A pause. — But you died before she did. She didn't have enough of you.

He looked at the mug. The tea was cold — he hadn't noticed while drinking it.

— Are you going back to the Zone? — Irina asked. Not with judgment. Just asking.

A long silence.

— Yes, — he said.

She nodded. Stood, cleared the mugs.

— I thought so. — A pause at the sink. — Not because you're a bad man, Misha. You're just someone else now.

* * *

He sold "Stardust" to the research center for good money — very good money. Gave part of it to Irina. The rest went into gear.

Three weeks later, he went back into the Zone.

Not because he needed to — he had enough money, no jobs lined up. Just because that was the only mode of existing left that still worked. In the city he walked his rented rooms from one to the next and ran into silence — too much of it, too dense, the kind with no room left in it for him.

In the Zone, the silence was different. It was alive. Something happened inside it — something moved, shifted, breathed. The Zone's silence didn't press on the ears. It spoke.

He walked, and the Zone talked to him through the rustle of leaves and the detector's beeping, through the smell of anomalous exhaust and the crunch of frozen ground underfoot. Not about Masha — about nothing in particular. Just about itself.

That was enough.

Chapter 6. Fine

Krot existed here. Now. In the Zone.

Other stalkers knew him. Not as a legend — as a reliable man you could bring into a group without worrying he'd wander off, panic, or do something reckless. He knew how to walk with scientists — that was his particular skill, a niche talent people valued. Nobody liked bringing scientists into the Zone: they asked questions, slowed the pace, reached for anomalies with measuring instruments when they should have been keeping their distance.

Krot knew how to talk to them in their own language. Explain the Zone through physics they understood. Keep them in line without offending them. It was a skill that had formed without him noticing — somewhere at the intersection of his father's legacy and his own experience.

That paid a little more. And jobs with research groups took priority.

* * *

— How are you holding up, Krot? — Slon asked once, when they sat by a fire.

Late already, the group asleep, only the two of them still awake — by some unspoken agreement that had formed on its own, because both knew: someone had to listen to the night, and it was easier to do that by a fire than from inside a sleeping bag.

— In what sense? — Krot asked.

— Well. — Slon shrugged. — Heard about your daughter. Sorry. You know how it is, the base is a village, everyone knows.

Krot was quiet for a while.

— Fine, — he said finally.

— No, it's not fine. — Slon said it without judgment, just stating it. — But you're managing. That's clear.

— Managing.

— You ever think about... going back? Getting out for good?

Krot looked at the fire.

— Nowhere to go, — he said.

— There's always somewhere.

— Not always.

Slon thought about it, then nodded.

— I get it, — he said. — I'm the same. Different reason, though.

They sat quietly. The fire burned.

— How long have you been walking? — Krot asked.

— Going on seventeen years.

That was a long time. Slon wasn't a legend — legends, as a rule, die young, dramatically, and for a reason. Slon just walked. Methodically, carefully, no heroics, no wasted moves. Seventeen years of that was, in itself, something serious.

— And it's fine? — Krot asked.

Slon smiled — not happily, more the way a man smiles when he knows something the other doesn't yet, and isn't sure whether it's worth telling.

— It's fine, — he said. — If you don't count that my normal life ended exactly seventeen years ago.

* * *

Krot thought about that for a long while, after Slon had curled up by the fire.

A normal life — that was what Mikhail Zemtsov had had. Engineer-physicist, model family man, an apartment overlooking a park. Tea on Sundays, Saturdays at the dacha, Masha with her serious look, asking about anomalies. That had been normal. That had been good.

That no longer existed.

Krot didn't have a normal life. He had a different one — complicated, dangerous, strange. But his own. Truly his own — not inherited from Mikhail Zemtsov, not built on someone else's blueprint. Earned. Suffered for. Here, every scuff on his boots was honest, every artifact in the container was deserved, every silence by the fire was real.

Maybe that's what "fine" meant.

Krot took the bundle of Irina's letters from the bottom of his rucksack. Put them in the fire, saying goodbye to his old self. Cutting off every road back for Mikhail.

* * *

A few months later, there was another night — also late, also by a fire, just a different group, a different place. Northern sector, grid eight, a cache by a stream that dried up in summer and flooded in spring.

A young walker — first year, name forgotten — asked:

— Krot. Why are you here? You're smart, educated. Could work in the city. Teach.

Krot looked at the fire.

— Because it's clear here, — he said.

— What's clear?

— Everything. — A pause. — Out there, there's a lot that isn't clear. A lot you don't control. Here — you don't control it either. But here, at least, you know where the threat's coming from.

The young man thought about it.

— That's strange logic, — he said.

— Maybe, — Krot agreed. — But it's honest.

He didn't add the main thing: that out there was the place where Masha died, and he hadn't been there. That out there was Irina, with her cold tea and her line about him being someone else now. That out there was an apartment with a view of a park that held nothing of his — no scent, no trace, no meaning.

The Zone was his.

That was enough — to stay.

* * *

Slon drifted out of Krot's life slowly — not physically, just less often crossing paths. Different routes, different jobs. Sometimes they met at the base — briefly, a nod, a couple of words. Sometimes they ate at the same table. Rarely — talked.

The last real conversation was in winter. Slon said he was thinking of leaving. For good. Buying something outside the city, somewhere quiet.

— That's the right call, — Krot said.

— Easy for you to say.

— Because it's true.

— And you?

— Nowhere for me to go.

Slon looked at him for a long time. Then said:

— "Nowhere" isn't an answer. "Nowhere" just means you haven't found it yet.

Krot didn't answer.

Slon left the following spring. Bought a plot of land — far from the perimeter, in another region. Wrote sometimes. Short: "alive, garden, quiet." Krot answered just as short: "alive, zone, fine."

That was their language. It suited them.

Chapter 7. The Day Before

The research center opened a new department for studying anomalous phenomena, with expanded funding. They were recruiting guides for long-term expeditions — two, three months, in the western and northern sectors. Good pay. Requirements: five years of experience, knowledge of topography, a medical license (a basic survival course counted).

Krot put in an application.

He went through the interview. Sat down across from a man in his mid-forties, a white coat thrown carelessly over his shoulders, with the tired eyes of a man asking the same question for the twentieth time that week.

— Seven years of experience. Zone — western, northern, central sectors. Western — good, central — adequate. — The man flipped through a printout. — Education — engineering physics. That explains the note, "knows the scientists' language." — He looked up. — Why do you want this assignment?

— Money.

The man was quiet.

— Don't lie to me, please, — he said. — I don't care what the real reason is. But lying at an interview is a sign of instability.

Krot looked at him.

— Habit, — he said. — I've got nothing to do out there. A long expedition beats short runs with gaps in between.

The man looked at him again — no judgment, just assessing.

— Fair enough, — he said finally. — You're in.

* * *

The first long expedition ran three months. Then a second. Then a third. The scientists rotated — Kolesnikov showed up somewhere around the fourth expedition, and Krot liked him right away: not stupid, no snobbery, listened to what he was told, didn't argue with the guide out on the route. The perfect client.

Krot had gone out with Kolesnikov five times by now.

He set money aside — mechanically, with no specific goal. Kept his gear in good shape. Collected artifacts, turned them in — it had become routine, like filing a work report. Sold a few rare specimens. Published three articles anonymously on the forum — on quasi-fields in the western sector, on carousel behavior at low temperatures, on emission precursors. The last one got reprinted in the center's internal journal — no name, just "your text was used."

He'd stopped looking for miracle artifacts.

Not out of disillusionment. Just — no reason to anymore. An artifact without a purpose is just a piece of crystallized field. Pretty, and pointless.

Masha was gone. Irina was living her own life — met someone, Krot had heard in passing, hadn't asked for details. That was right. Irina deserved a normal life. That wasn't his story anymore.

His story happened here.

* * *

The Barkeep's bar was a place Krot had known for a long time.

Not the coziest place — a barrack hastily converted, with wooden benches that creaked under any weight, a single lamp on a post outside, swaying in the draft from the front door so the shadows on the floor never sat still. But reliable. The Barkeep was one of those men who lived neither in the Zone nor outside it, but in that in-between space people called the base — territorially beyond the perimeter, but still an antechamber, not the Zone itself. He knew everyone. Informed on no one. Kept his own counsel, could get information for a fee, and the price was always fair.

Krot came in when he needed to wait something out, or listen.

That day he came because a message had arrived — short, over the shared channel: "Job. Trip to the eastern sector. Kolesnikov's science group. Guide needed. Standard pay, departure day after tomorrow. Report to the Barkeep's."

The eastern sector — Krot had gone there a few times on solo runs, but not too deep. He knew the route on a basic level, no more. Which meant they'd need a second man — someone who knew it deeper, or who could cover ground where the map ran out.

He walked into the bar, took a spot by the wall, ordered tea — the Barkeep brewed a decent tea, which was rare. Started waiting.

Kolesnikov didn't keep him waiting long.

* * *

There were four of them. Kolesnikov — in his usual jacket with the expedition patch, a map already half-unfolded, with that focused look he always had at the start, before things settled into a working rhythm. Beside him — the second scientist: stocky, bespectacled, a rucksack clearly packed well past reason, with a habit of keeping a notebook under his arm even indoors. He was the kind of researcher who wrote everything down — just in case it came in useful later. Krot had crossed paths with him once before, same lineup: quiet, stubborn, didn't get in the way out in the field, but loved arguing about the nature of anomalies at rest stops, with the air of a man who'd already made up his mind on the matter.

Two men in civilian clothes stood a little apart — calm, at ease, with the kind of bearing that settles into a body and doesn't leave, even when the man's wearing a field jacket with no rank insignia. Not tourists, not random people. Soldiers, assigned to the group because the Zone wasn't a place for a stroll.

They discussed the route and the group — besides the ones Krot could see, Kolesnikov's group had two more: an assistant and another stalker.

Then Kolesnikov said the thing Krot himself had been about to propose:

— We need a second guide. The eastern sector's deeper than I'd want to go without backup.

— I know, — Krot said. — Already thought about it.

They didn't discuss candidates — Kolesnikov clearly already had someone in mind. But he wasn't saying who yet.

* * *

Half an hour later, Leshy walked in.

Krot had seen a lot of stalkers.

All kinds — old and young, skilled and mediocre, those who went into the Zone for money, and those who went because there was nowhere else. Those who feared it and overcame that fear every time, and those who didn't fear it anymore — because they'd stopped feeling the risk, which was dangerous in itself.

Leshy was different.

Young — twenty, no more. Thin, in gear that fit him like a second skin — not new, clearly worn in, every piece fitted to that particular body. Moved quietly. Not the way people move when they're trying to be quiet — the way something moves for which quiet is simply a way of being. Not an effort. A nature.

He sat down across from Skvoznyak. A short exchange. Skvoznyak slid something over — a map, probably, Krot couldn't see. Leshy looked at it in silence, never nodded once, never asked to repeat anything. Just looked — and Krot understood he was memorizing it. Not studying it, not analyzing out loud — just filing it away in his head, the way you file something into a container.

Then he looked up.

At Krot.

For a second. Calm. No challenge, no wariness — just a look, a registration, filed away in the part of the head where useful things are kept.

Krot nodded.

Leshy nodded back.

They knew of each other, but had never worked together. Kolesnikov noticed the eye contact — asked Krot about the stalker. And the moment he heard the callsign, decided without a shadow of a doubt that he'd found his second guide. All that was left was to work out the details.

The moment Leshy finished talking with Skvoznyak, Kolesnikov didn't waste time — walked straight to his table.

The conversation was short. Krot watched from a distance — not eavesdropping, just tracking the movements: Kolesnikov talked, Leshy listened, clarified something once, then nodded. That was it.

A short while later Kolesnikov came back, glowing about as much as he ever did, and managed only to tell Krot:

— We leave in half an hour.

* * *

Krot stood, heading for the door. Leshy fell in step with their table just then — they were heading the same way, toward the door, and since they'd be walking together anyway, no point putting off the introductions.

— Krot, — Krot said.

— I know, — Leshy said. — Saw you with Kolesnikov on the last expedition. Northern sector, September.

— Don't remember you there.

— Wasn't in the group. Walked parallel.

Krot looked at him more closely. A parallel route in the northern sector — that meant either a very experienced loner, or someone with a specific job. September in the north — cold, the field unstable after the summer's activity. Not a place you walk for practice.

— Your own business? — Krot asked.

— My own business.

Short. No explanation. Krot didn't push — stalker rules: don't ask about someone else's job.

— At the base gates? — he asked instead.

— Yes.

— What do you know about the route?

— Enough. — A pause. — Kolesnikov needs to get to the old riverbed, three observation points there. From there — east, to the industrial zone. Back the same way, or through the village, if there's trouble.

— I think there will be, — Krot said. — After the last emission, the northern edge of the eastern sector shifted. About a kilometer.

Leshy looked at him — again, brief, appraising.

— Skvoznyak said the same thing. You know this route?

— Walked it four times over the last two years.

— Good, — Leshy said.

And that was it. The conversation ended — not because it ran dry, but because exactly as much had been said as needed. Krot appreciated that. Plenty of walkers talked too much — from nerves, from wanting to show off experience, from a habit of filling silence. This one stayed quiet the right way: because the silence didn't need filling.

Krot slowed a little.

Thought: interesting man. Very young, but something in him — adult. Not by age. As if someone older lived inside, looking out through young eyes.

He nodded to the Barkeep and went out to get ready.